#8.14.2020

[lovemileybird]

[smolbunart]

My first fanart from the anime Toilet Bound Hanako-Kun!

I really like these two and secretly hope they end up together in the end uwu

[xandiland]

Actually you know what, I'm doing pretty well, all things considered. Overall I'm feeling pretty happy and well-centered. And even though I messed up something major today (slept through a work meeting after a sleepless night), I'm proud of myself for everything I've overcome the past nine months or so:

One of my longtime closest friends since early childhood passed away unexpectedly in November

My beloved grandmother got sick and passed away early in 2020

My aunt and great-uncle also died, one unexpectedly and one less so

My longtime boyfriend and longertime best friend started acting distant and cold for the first time ever, in the middle of all this

I got sick in March with severe breathing problems and chest pain and still have not fully recovered, months later. Yes, it was probably that thing. I thought I was going to die and it was the most intense pain I've ever experienced

The grad program I've been so excited for is now going to be online for me (but not most of my classmates) due to my immunocompromised household

The only time I've been in a building that isn't my house since March was to go to the doctor. I have not seen any of my friends or extended family since then

I was laid off from my main side gig, losing 1/3 of my income

My main job is dependent on an industry that no longer exists in the same way during the virus, so I've had to work much harder and take on additional tasks despite being burnt out constantly

I found out my boyfriend/best friend had cheated on me and lied about it

My sister moved out with her (actual) pathological liar boyfriend and has been lying too

My sister also outed me to my incredibly homophobic and especially biphobic dad

I've had ongoing and scary medical issues all year

We had to put down my cat for suspected rabies, which we later found out he did not have

Honestly a million other things

But again, I'm doing pretty well now! I'm happy and calm on the whole and sometimes I have rough days like today but considering everything, I'm honestly really proud of myself