I find myself feeling excited, which is an incredibly rare occurrence for me, particularly excitement that doesn't have anxiety attached.
At the end of August, I will be driving a little under 6 hours after getting off work at 3:30 and heading toward Red Lodge, MT to spend Labour Day weekend with Trevor. I am anxiously excited, but not excited but anxious, if that makes. The last time he and I made plans in advance to see each other, I had this nagging feeling that it wasn't going to happen for some unforeseen reason. Sure 'nough, we got delayed for about a month. The week leading up to his actual visit was spent with me trying to continue day-to-day life without acknowledging it, for fear of disappointment. But this time is different. I feel, dare I say, confident? that it will happens.
This will also be the first time I've taken my new-to-me, '06 Honda Pilot out of town since I got it on the 4th of July. I have an oil change and break inspection scheduled for next week. I haven't done a drive this long since we moved from WY to ID in January. Prior to that would have been going from just outside of NYC to Syracuse in November or so of 2017, and I wasn't even driving that time. The last actually drive was 23 hours split between a friend and I from GA to Colorado in June of 2017. So, oof, it's been a minute. I'm looking forward to it though. I know the way, which is nice, and it's beautiful. Still debating if I want the scenic route through Yellowstone that takes 6 or so hours, or if I'm gonna go through Big Sky, MT and the Gallatin National Forest. Probably the latter for the way there. Possibly the first for the way back.
In other news, I think I have a date lined up for next Wednesday with am artist I met on tinder. We've been texting for a few weeks now, which has been nice, and we're at the point where our conflicting work schedules are becoming an a nuisance. He doesn't have much kink experience, but he's older and knows the kinky lingo. I've gotten nothing but solid vibes from him. He seems just as adamant on consent and communication as I am, and was not perturbed by my mention of pet play. If anything, he was intrigued and expressed interest in facilitating that. He's also a big cuddler, and we've agreed there will be snuggles before anything else.
