#9 dpo

[shelbywanders]

9 dpo 😬

Everything inside me is telling me this month is it. But...ugh. I should know better to be this hopeful. Dull cramps, sore boobs, the super light spotting a couple of days ago, my cervix is suuuuper high & soft & closed. I’m also bloated to hell. Of course, that could alllll be the progesterone supplements talking which is why I’m not holding my breath. 😪

I went shopping today & while looking for shirts for my daughter on the same clothes rack there were two shirts back to back with pineapples on them (infertility symbol) & then a big sister shirt RIGHT behind them! If that ain’t a sign, I don’t know what is! I smiled big in the aisle bc I love seeing signs, even if they don’t turn out to be one...false hope is better than no hope in my book. I came home with the pineapple shirts but the big sister shirt ended up staying, didn’t want to jinx anything. 😂 Although...if I get a bfp soon, I’ll be going back & getting it. ❤️🌈🤞🏼

[worldsokayestmother]

C4 / CD 34

9 DPO

OKAY! So my friend who’s also a nurse got some HCG test at her work I can pick up tomorrow. They are 25 miU.

[worldsokayestmother]

C3 / CD25

9 DPO Something is seriously wrong with me. I have slept almost constantly the last 3 days. I wake up at 5 am, go to work, get home at 3.30 pm, go to bed, wake up the next day, etc. I have a night shift today, and I literally woke up at 7am, and now 4 hours later I just woke up from a 1,5 hour long nap. 😴 I feel like sleeping beauty. But older and bloated.

[fayeron]

CD30/9DPO

Finally remembered to take my temp this morning…it was down from three days ago but still slightly up from where it usually is. Boobs are still sore. Oh and fun fact, I basically felt like crying all day…which could also be a sign that my period is around the corner.

Tmi: while fooling around this evening the hubs told me my nipples seemed bigger but I don’t know…he may have been just telling me what I want to hear.

[wasdreadedmoose-blog]

Haven't really had too many side effects of the progesterone. The only really notable one is my boobs hurt so much.. uugh. Today is only 9 dpo and I forgot to torture myself by testing. I don't know why I do that.. never having got a bfp before 11 dpo, but I can't be bothered to hold back when I have so many on hand.

This morning I had a really comforting thought; once I finally hold my baby, they will be in direct contact with the tattoo that I just got. I find that quite special. Come on, bubs, get in there.

[wasdreadedmoose-blog]

Cried in the bathroom at work for pretty much no reason at all. I still feel down and like I could cry. No idea why, possibly hormonal? I have 3 more hours of this 11 hour shift. I'm utterly exhausted. I haven't tested again. My temp was only 97.86 today which is normal and not suggestive of pregnancy in my opinion. My temp should be around 98 or above so I've lost hope. Guess it's for the best since I'm moving this weekend. Sigh.

[wasdreadedmoose-blog]

9 dpo

No glaring symptoms but I have such an urge to POAS. Uuugh. Self control is so hard. Only have two tests, and soonest I told myself I can test is Sunday.. it's so close.

[wasdreadedmoose-blog]

I just realized that I will need to start my next round of clomid on December 24th if my period arrives and if it's on time. That is making me really anxious because I need to call my clinic for a refill on CD 1, so if my period is late that will really screw things up. I think I will call on Monday regardless of bleeding. That way I won't have to worry. If I have a bfn that day chances are I'm not pregnant, even if my period doesn't show yet.

I really don't think I'm pregnant. I have no symptoms at all aside from some very mild pelvic cramping, which I think is normal for me. I caved in and took an hpt and of course it was bfn. 

This is the last month I had, mentally, to get pregnant. If I see red I will be so devastated.

In two days my Little Dove would have been born :(

(I did an opk today too and it's a bit darker than the one I used yesterday. Only slightly. Trying not to read into that at all though, since it's still negative at about 60% of the control color)