I've never been in a relationship and cause I'm 20 it feels like no one could Ever want me Like THat (ik im young leave me alone) so i settle for fuck buddies but after a while i either catch feelings or just get unhappy and stop denying to myself that i want a lover and then i break things off and try to effort my way to having a lover but all i can focus on is the lack of a lover and so it never happens. I just wanna STOP thinking about relationships and love but Lack Of Lover is prolly one of my most dominant vibrations so it's hard :(
Maybe i should just decide that i don't want make myself fucking miserable anymore.! I know that if i can think about other things MORE, the universe will bring the perfect person to me in such a delicious way. Kinda ready to see how the universe is gonna make it happen on my behalf. Okay then. Universe, I'm deciding right here right now i want to stop making myself miserable by thinking about the lack of love (AW UNIVERSE 🥺🥺 say hey (i love you) came on n he says something like u can bump into someone on the street n look in their eyes n love em)! I am deciding to instead focus on my meditation so i can feel better and WHEN I'M READY my perf relationship gon fall into place and I'm gonna revel in how utterly perfect it was and how exciting it was on the journey to get to them! I am deciding imma put my full (maybe mostly full) faith into the universe so i can switch from struggle to ease and laughter and bliss and SATISFACTIONNNN, because THAT'S WHAT I DESERVE, THAT'S WHAT I WANT, THAT'S WHAT MY PRECIOUS INNER BEING IS HOLDING THE SPACE FOR FOR ME, THAT'S WHO MY INNER BEING IS! I'M DECIDING TO MEET MY INNER BEING AS OFTEN AS I CAN TO FEEL THAT UTTER BLISS I HAVE KNOWN TO BE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE! I AM DECIDING TO INTEND TO FEEL THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AS OFTEN AS I'M READY FOR!