100Days
Sooooo I decided to send my mom a message on Facebook (since I don’t have a phone). I typed it all up ready to send it, then I chickened out at the last minute. This is what it said:
“Just wanted to say thank you for all you’ve done for me for the past almost 26 years i really appreciate it. I know I’m well over the age of you having to help me do anything, but it breaks my heart every time i call you and all you're worried about is you spending more money. I would think the most important part would be to make sure i have a way of getting in contact with you, I have been without a phone for only a day and I’ve already got locked out the school and had to sit on side the curve until someone decided to come outside. i also study late at night and feel as though it would be very dangerous for me to not have a way of calling the police when I leave the school in the dead of the night. Again I’m not being ungrateful, trust me i am grateful for everything you've done. you have done way more for me than you ever had to. just know just like you, i cannot wait until i do not have to even partially depend on you or anyone else, hence why I’m in pharmacy school right now and the reason I’m not giving up. every time i think about needing help form anyone...it just makes me work even harder. so i am currently trying to find someone to honestly GIVE me a phone, because i can not afford to buy my own or get on my own line. My funds are stretched to their limits each month. My boyfriend said he would give me his upgrade, but ill still have to pay for it myself.I barely have money to pay my bills, let alone buy a phone. i cannot work a full time job and still be in good standings in school. I literally study 8+ hours a day on top pf school and extra curricular that they are making us do. i just though while I was in school and unable to work a full 40 hours a week (trust me, I would if I could) you guys would find it in our hearts to help. because I know after I graduate you guys would expect me to help y'all. and I was planning on doing just that. I totally understand that I am grown, but I am also unable to fully 100% take care of myself while in school. I literally pay all my other bills by myself, added stress on top of what i do everyday. I sit and cry just thinking about how I do not have the support I need. It just makes everything a little more unnecessarily hard. Just wanted to say thanks for everything you've done so far, and i wont bother you anymore with my needs.”
I sent this to my sister first to get her reaction, it definitely wasn’t what i was expecting. She din’t really have a comment. So I decided not to send it to my mom. It would only break her heart, even though she breaks my heart almost daily. It would have been disrespectful to send it to her, so I’ll keep my feelings to myself, to ultimately spare hers.
