#a diary entry

[moonshinemagpie]

i couldnt get out of bed because i hadnt eaten in too long but then i remembered i had a silly sweater and a mini skirt to wear today and i swung right out to go hunt for calories. Anyway lately this is how i make it through life

[villainsrtasty]

Regrets

Sōsuke Aizen x reader (SFW)

A few months post thousand year blood war. (No TYBW spoilers)

You are finally granted a promotion and have to move out immediately. As you clean up the current room you occupied, you notice a small unfamiliar notebook hidden among your belongings. You drag it out and dust off the fragile cover. Your eyes are wide in shock and your hands begin to tremble as you read the name on the cover. It belongs to your past lover. The man you grow to resent and despise.

Your first thought is to burn the diary. But as you quickly flip through the pages, you come across a page with your name. Curiosity grabs hold of any reasoning and you will soon regret your decision to dwell into the past.

Other pages: Desires A Play

A page from Lieutenant Aizen’s diary.

Regrets

Y/N,

Today you asked me if I had any regrets.

Do I? Should I?

Because you seemed rather offended by my response.

I do not regret the stairs I climb and the bodies I must trample over to reach my throne. That much is for certain.

I understand regret is a basic emotional response for which I lack. But you have known me for many years and I never tried to hide my true nature. So why would you ask me such a heavy loaded question that holds no value?

We have lived many years as wandering souls. Hundreds. Thousands. It will take all eternity for a normal soul to play out all his or her regrets. But sadly I ain’t a normal Soul now am I?

Besides, what purpose would regret serve me? As a Lieutenant I must move forward and not let such a burden anchor me down. And I would appreciate your support as my soul partner as I follow this path to Godship.

I do not regret the response I gave you. I know you were unsatisfied and it pained me to see you leave in distress. I thought you understood me but that was a foolish assumption on my part. I shall be more wary of that in the future.

Now as I sit here and reflect, it just naturally occurred to me. Perhaps if you were to rephrase that question as a hypothetical one like, would I regret ever losing you, then maybe you would have gotten an earnest and suitable response

S. Aizen

[lavenderhaven]

i don’t think people in my life realise how much of a genuine struggle it is for me to get a job because the majority of the time i’ve known them i ‘haven’t been autistic’ and I’m fairly neurotypical passing. but in reality the idea alone of working a 9-5 job is enough to send me into a meltdown. i have such a fear of ending up as one of the statistics but i need to start realising that i AM part of the statistics: i am unemployed because of my autism and the social anxiety that causes me. no one understands that, i can’t just change it with some mental willpower, positive attitude and fake confidence.

[oakantony]

i went from having very involved parents to almost none at all because of my dad’s accident and my mom’s spiraling after losing him and it’s really weird and something that has made me unrelatable to so many people that i considered peers. i’m so young to have lost that support system so soon and our family was so small that there’s nothing to build from. i’m standing at a ground zero and i’m just not sure where to go. it’s been twelve months now

[tequilatuesdays4all]

                                                                                                            August 1983

When you left this morning, I was standing on the balcony watching your perfectly soft feet slipping in and out of your espadrilles as you made your way into town. I waited until your footprints were mere ghosts on the green then went back inside and buried my face deep in your pillow. Your scent flooded the most intricate parts of my brain and left me an amorous mess. I ran my hands along my sides just barely brushed my fingertips over my skin. I let them travel over my chest down my stomach slowly caressing my thighs. None of it feels like mine anymore since it has been touched by your hands, tasted by your tongue. Every second we spend apart during the day kills me until you bring me back to life at night with your lips all over my body. Had I known passion before I met you? I surrender myself to you, take me, use me do with me what you will...

My heart has been yours since the first time I saw you.

[lavenderhaven]

just finished bridgerton s2 and god i want to be fucking wooed someone court me i need romance i need tension i need yearning i need longing glances across a crowded room i need lingering touches

[lavenderhaven]

started reading the percy jackson series after wanting to for so long but thinking i was ‘too old’ for the books. i realised that reading is already a struggle for me bc of adhd so why make it harder by reading confusing inaccessible classics when i could heal my undiagnosed inner child and read something i genuinely enjoy