#a string of thoughts

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my entire thinking has been solely about the sapphic ships in this fandom. i love them so muchhhh dude

i have an entire draft of headcanons and i’m holding back because it’s so dear to me and it’s upsetting because i feel it would be drowned out and just.

the root of sapphic ships in this fandom doesn’t get the promotion and recognition that the many mlm ships do, and i understand why they don’t but it’s still frustrating. yknow?

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nothing to say, 4:48pm

you may have noticed that in the last few weeks i have failed to post. i have not even finished telling you about what happened with my time on ncs. this is most simply because i have nothing to say. and nothing that i do say makes an difference. i am not interesting. and people do not want to listen. this is not a cry for attention. it is just a fact. the truth of the matter is i don't have insights on how to look at the world in a better light. i am not helpful. and so, what gives me a reason to post like i am? the answer to that question is that i have no reason. so this will be my final post to this tumblr account. go find somebody to make you feel better somewhere else. i apologise for wasting your time on my nonsense. - wallace

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The Full Story - Day One, 11:17pm.

so i finally have a chance to fully explain everything that has gone on over the last three weeks of my nfs program. i hope you enjoy the adventure i am about to tell you about just as much as i enjoyed living it. so, week one, day one, possibly the scariest thing i have ever done, i got on a bus. but not any old bus, it was a bus full of strangers, people i had never met before, and people i would never even dream of talking to on a daily basis at home. what i didn't know is that these people would soon be like family to me, i would be putting my life in their hands, and they would not once let me down. after arriving at the pgl camp that we where to call home for the next week, everything was just a little awkward, no one knew anyones names, no one knew what the next week had in store for us, there was an awkward silence in the air and none of us knew how to break it. then came the all important ice breakers. i know. we all love them so much ~sarcasm intended~ but actually after a while, they really started to become fun. by the end of the first day the tension was gone - and so was an orange to which we had shredded with our bare hands.  

- wallace

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Wordless, 1:56am.

you never really understand how little you know about yourself in till someone asks you to write it all down. and the stuff that you do remember, well, it tends to only be the bad. i don't know why that is. maybe someone out there has a theory, and maybe if we ask nice enough they would tell us that theory, i for one would love to hear it. i am currently left wondering about who i really am, what is it that makes me, me. there has to be something that sets me apart from the others, something that is bad, something that is good. but the more i think about it, the more i realise that i don't have that much good to fall back on. yes i have my family and friends, but apart from that, what is there? all i have is bad memories and reoccurring nightmares, thoughts that won't go away and a lack of motivation, and it pains me to think that that is all that i am. i hope that maybe someday i will be something more than that, and i hope that that day is soon. but i do have one question for the small handful of people that actually read my blog. who are you? what makes you who you are? and why are you that way?... just something to think about - Wallace

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Never apologise for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn't apologise for being bright and the rain doesn't say sorry for falling. Feelings just are. You can't stop them anymore than you can stop the sun or the rain. So don't apologise. Never apologise for how you feel.

Wallace

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My Birthday, 11:48pm.

Here marks the end of the wonderful day that i have had. I would like to thank all of my friends for the great gifts they have given me. 17 at last!

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Names And Faces, 1:23am.

There is one thing that has always played on my mind, and i thought that tonight, i would share it with you. Its to do with names and faces, and words. The things we say, and how people remember us saying them. My theory is, If you say something worthwhile, people will remember it, they might not remember your name, or you face, but they will remember your words. That’s why i strongly believe that you don’t have to be someone famous in order to change the world. You just have to say the right thing. People need to remember that an idea can never die, the person that first thought of it may pass, but the idea itself will be picked up be someone else, but that can only happen it you tell people, if you let the world know. If you say something meaning and worthwhile, i can guarantee, that in 100 years time, people might not know what you looked like, and some might not know your name, but they will know what you said. And maybe some people need to think about that more before they speak… - Wallace

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Late night listening - Wallace