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My Girls.

12. You are small. You are smart. You are sassy and you are beautiful. One day the world will bow to you. One day you will be fighting for everything you want and getting it. But until then it is okay to sit back and let some things happen. Know that life is difficult till the day you die, it's just a matter of dealing with it. You are bright and kind and you have your whole life ahead of you. Rushing it will make things worse. You have started to learn this the hard way. Also. Toxic individuals are very good at pushing themselves back in, but you don't have to let them. Learn to not let them. It'll be better for you in the long run. Know that I love you. I will always love you. You are my world. 13 You were so shy at first, but now we jump towards each other when we meet. I remember meeting you at a church. Ironic, because we both never go. You knew who I was but I did not know you. You and I talked for a few minutes before I left to go pray, but you were all I could think of. You are strong. You are beautiful. I wish I could tell you that I know what you're going through. And how your mom is like my dad. And how your fears were the same as mine. And how sometimes your voice shakes and you cry and i understand because most nights, I'm crying too. You are my rock. You push yourself so hard for what you want and it is more than I could ever say I do for myself. I aspire to have your drive. I aspire to be like you. You are worth so much more than you tell yourself. Remember that a parent or a sexuality can not hold you back from what you deserve. I think you know that, it's just hard to do some times. But I've seen you push through harder. Remember what you deserve 14 You're so damn tall. I love you so much. You have been nothing but bright eyed and happy since the day I first met you. I've never seen you sad. I do want you to know that sometimes life will stab you. Sometimes things will not go your way. And I want you to know if that is ever something you can not handle on your own, that you have a whole crew to help you through it. I will let you yell. I will let you scream. Thank you for being such an inspiration for me. Thank you for pushing to better everyday, and thank you for teaching me things I never thought I could learn from someone so much younger than me. You are my double A. You are my girl. Remember that whenever you need me. 15 You're not as tall as your sister. But you're still amazing You and I just recently started talking more. But I remember seeing you with Gavin constantly. I remember seeing you and him at the show for the first time and getting excited I remember having my first conversation with you after training. I remember you asking to come to my birthday and I was more than happy to say yes. You are one of my girls. Just like the others. You are amazing smart and talented. I cannot wait to see you progress And I wasn't lying when I said I was so proud of you for pushing yourself even when it hurt. Even when you run like Naruto. You will always have a place with me. Thank you for reaching out to me first. 16 Holy shit I love you. So much. You are my best friend. My wife. My baby mama. I couldn't imagine where I'd be without you. You are the one person I go to for everything You are the one person I will listen to for hours on end and never get bored You are my true best friend and I could've never asked for anyone better. I'm so lucky to know you and even more lucky to get to be there for you. You will forever be my number 1. You know everything there is to know. You know what advice to give. You know the support I need. And I hope I do the same. And I want you to know that not mater what goes on I am here. You are smart You are beautiful You are kind And your are worthy You are worthy You are worthy. I hope you learn to see yourself like that to. You have not and will never ever be anything less than worthy. Fight for what you love and what you believe. And watch me fight right next to you. I love you. Thank you so much. You are all my girls. You will forever be my girls. Even when you hate me. Even when you are angry. Even when you are sad. Even when you are confused and upset. I will be here. Always. Like I know you are for me. I love you. All of you 🖤

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You Really Are An Ugly Crier

I didn’t think I’d be crying but this pain keeps bringing back memories of your smile, of how stupidly laud you laugh at the most simple things, of how we’d talk about that ugly dress your boss always seemed to wear, or all those times you told me I was both the ugliest and yet prettiest girl you’ve ever seen and even all those times I’d mock that big crooked nose of yours, that always steals away the beauty of your cute innocent smile.

You know your mother was right. She was right about me. You were always too good for me. Both of us knew that. You were always such a genuine caring person…as for me…I’m not much more than a born villain. I’ve been feeding off you kindness and that’s what hurts me the most. Seeing you so lost, desperate, not knowing what else to do or how else to help me…just like now. 

I don’t want to hurt you anymore. You are the most precious thing in me.

I’ve spent my life regretting every little thing, every other step I gave but there is not one second I regret spending with you. Not when we’d fight, not when I’d call you all I knew hurt you so much. I cannot regret you.

If you allow me to be selfish one more time. Would you please let go of my wrists? It hurts me too much seeing that ugly face you make when you cry. Please God…if I can be selfish one last time. Please make sure he doesn’t stay mad for too long, you were never meant to be anything else but happy. Please make him forget me. I don’t want to see you in my grave. I don’t want you to share more thoughts of me. Stop calling my name, please! I’d be happier if you’d forget all about me. I don’t want to be the reason for your tears, not anymore. So please just know you were the most beautiful thing in my life, even if all I did was ruin yours. - A.F