#abelisim

[genyasafinsmissingeye]

So, I was on tiktok today and came across a video on my for you page where this guy (black) was making a joke that he would beat up a kid with tourettes if they said the n-word. You know, just a real funny joke about threatening to assault a disabled child. The comments were filled with things like “I’m gonna beat the tourettes out of them” and a bunch of misinformation that tics are just intrusive thoughts or things you already say, that it had to be in their vocabulary. I made a video of my own in response to this tiktok, basically saying why it was wrong and combatting the misinformation and lies from the comments. I wasn’t harsh at all, but only a couple hours later my video was taken down for “bullying and harassment.” Yet, when I reported this guy's video- in which he jokes about punching disabled kids- I was told there were no content violations. Make it make sense.

[genyasafinsmissingeye]

The thing about having tourette syndrome is that people’s reactions often go from pity or treating you like you have stage three cancer, to being entirely dismissive or flippant. An example of this is a former friend of mine, who once told me that he would “kill himself if he had tourette’s”. And a little under a year later, the same friend told me that I have to stop calling Tourettes a disability, because “all I do is curse and twitch sometimes.” (Which isn’t true by the way) Why can’t people understand that you can acknowledge and accept the difficulties of tourette’s without making it seem like a life threatening illness, aka all the sad edits of Billie Eillish’s tics, or disregarding its difficulties entirely?

[genyasafinsmissingeye]

So I think my orthodontist is abelist.

Once, when I was at an appointment, I ticked. He asked me if I ‘had a twitch’ When I responed saying I had tourette syndrome, he gave me a look and repeated, ‘you have a twitch.’ Like he was correcting me or something.

And then when I went another time, I ticked and I guess he forgot that I ‘had a twitch’ because he mimicked my tic. He was all like, why did you flinch? Are you nervous? I replied for a second time I had tourettes. This time he didn’t correct me, but he said ‘oh, well I assumed it was a flinch because people get scared of me.” That wasn’t a bad thing to say, but I was annoyed, so I said, “I wonder why.” 

Thoughts? Am I looking too far into this?

[backscratchersrbetterthensex]

Every one being like "but thats the only way I can say that!!! Its just a word" While saying abelist and racist terms like english and other languages aren't famous for making up new words every generation

[monsterqueers]

yyeah ok father dear

tell me more about how im a manipulative lazy villain who can never do anything and is ‘villifying’ poor little you who never did anything wrong ever your jjust a hard working man who is always right who just wants to help his ‘daughter’

what else is new

yes ok tell me more about the same spiel you always go on about how technology is the devil and why Im ‘a (insert r slur here) (insert b slur here)’

coolio

go ahead and tell me that when I say I cant do something that im lying

thats fine I already know im the bratty violent asshole who wont go anywhere in life without you and that I will end up in a mental hospital in a straight jacket because I cant control myself and cant exist in the real world and who is making a big deal out of nothing and how im so privileged that you care and ive convinced myself im right when im not and how my perception isnt real because I cant prove an exact quote that you said something

I know im a control freak crybaby who needs to ‘wake the fuck up’ father dear you have said that more than once

go ahead and tell me more about how I have no empathy like thats a bad thing and how ‘It would serve (me) right to have my things wrecked or lost’

nothing I didnt know anyway

and just like usual ill forgive you once you act like nothing happened

fuck you father dear

your the reason why I flinch when doors slam or the phrase ‘fucking a’ is used and possibly why loud noise fucks me up and everything seems loud and needs to stop so I shut down and daydream so I dont have to hear it

and you scared your girlfriends dog shame on you

[monsterqueers]

(warning for the unintentional typing quirk whoops I actually didnt mean to type this like that but alas I did and Im not going back and fixing it)

Wow Dad Nice 10 Minute Ablest Tirade Nice To See Your Intent To Invalidate My Existence Disguised Under False Concern Alongside Shitting On The Labels I Need To Have Any Sense Of Self And Proceeding To Clearly Labeling *Yourself* As Someone I Will Never Trust Ever Because Not Only Does He Have To Be Horribly Ablest And Throw Around Disgusting Slurs All The Time He Has To Be Transphobic And Anti-Self-Diagnosing. And Not Only That But He Pulls The 

'We Are All A Little Bit Depressed :)) What Your Feeling Everyone Feels :) The Internet Is The Devil Lets Go Back To The Old Ways And I Seriously Just Agreed To Stoning People To Death As A Thing That Should Come Back And You Are Convinced You Have Things Wrong With You And That Isn't Whats Happening' 

Thing Alongside The Five Seconds Later Pretending It Never Happened And Then Holding Shit Over My Head

Ugh

Fuck This Im Taking A Bath Im Sick I Dont Need This Shit

[thoughtsandfeelsbpd]

Something I’m having a hard time getting used to is people perceiving me as thin.(even though I shouldn’t need to get used to it but that’s a different discussion) I mean I understand that my body is different from when I was a teenager and my early twenties, when I was a little bit heavier. But now my body has settled into a very smaller feminine shape than I’m used to remembering, because I radically altered what I do and don’t eat for allergy reasons and started making a lot of my meals from scratch. So as I was standing there in the cold early morning, shivering in my hat and coat, I was caught off guard when someone asked me:

“What are you? Cold?”

“Yeah, I have no body heat regulation.”  (Which I don’t I can go from overheating to freezing in minutes)

“Eat a cheeseburger!”

Never mind that I eat pretty well even though I’m poor. Even lately I’ve been slipping a little and not eating as healthy as I could. But yet I’m still fairly small in body size. But I still mentally don’t see myself like that. But that also has to deal with my gender expression and personality disorder as well.

I understand that this person’s perception of me has no outcome on my life. But I feel like I should have told him to mind his own business? It was 8:30 in the morning and under 30 degrees Fahrenheit? He was also wearing a parka and I had on an alpaca hoodie, in truth, I should have grabbed another coat, and I knew that, but I didn’t because I was also groggy.

But he decided that since I was small, that meant that I wasn’t eating, so he needed to inform me that I need to not care about what I look like and eat. I did say that I do eat cheeseburgers, and he then walked away. Never mind that I haven’t been able to keep much weight on because of my chronic pain, that he knew nothing about, or that I should have put on at least 1-2 more layers of warm clothing if I wanted to exist comfortably and without increased pain, but yeah whatever dude, thanks for the unsolicited advice just because I was cold in Montana.

This whole rant is just filled with too many interconnecting parts of myself to figure out which one it struck and is bothering.

[pixienatthecat]

How come it's okay for able-bodied privileged actors to portray disabled people?