#ableism check!

[chronicallyimmune]

i have to admit— even though i make internalized ableism checks on here, i struggle a lot with it myself.

i use a cane and i’m mad about it. but usually i can stand up long enough to do a quick shower in the dorms. i’ve been really struggling to do that lately.

i have a foldable stool just in case but i hadn’t used it yet. it felt like using the stool was letting the illness win.

and then i got this text while i was complaining about it:

use your mobility aids! don’t show up empty handed to this knife fight, bring your knife and cut a bitch.

it was so nice to shower and actually get my hair clean. i feel so much better AND i didn’t pass out naked on the floor! double win!

so yes. internalized ableism check. unstrap that dagger from your thigh and sit down in the shower

[chronicallyimmune]

weather: *is cold and slightly damp*

my body: WE HAVE NOT SLEPT IN DAYS. EVERY FOOD IS POISON. I CAN’T BELIEVE WE JUST HIKED ALL OF MOUNT EVEREST AND THEN SMASHED OUR KNEES WITH A HAMMER! DID YOU KNOW THAT EVERY INDIVIDUAL JOINT IN YOUR HAND CAN HURT INDEPENDENTLY??

a friendly reminder that sometimes the weather is ableist. fistfight it at every opportunity.

take time to rest. if you can’t rest, do anything you can to mitigate your symptoms. for me, that’s compression braces on my knees, a cane, and a heating pad. can you prop your legs up while at work? can you move a little slower?

[chronicallyimmune]

i’m scared of needles. they send me into a heart racing cold sweat.

so obviously my medication is a self-administered injection.

today was the FIRST TIME i successfully did the injection alone! there was no tech malfunction, no panic attack, no expensive intramuscular liquid dripping down my legs. so it’s a party over here!

internalized ableism check:

are you getting the help you need?

i understand that it’s scary, but there are people who want to support you.

you are CAPABLE. you are LOVED. you can DO THIS.

don’t let yourself keep hurting because you’re afraid.