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[fictionkinfessions]

After hearing about yanderedev's most recent... actions I'm really hoping I never get another Ayano shift again. I genuinely feel so bad for the people he's hurt. And there's still some people defending him! Flat out denying what he did even though there's proof. Or saying that what he did was ok. It disgusts me. It reminds me way too much of when people defended my abuser. (in this life.) I hate this.

- An Ayano Aishi who wishes they never heard about Yandere Simulator

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[fictionkinfessions]

I wish i could reference or talk about my exotrauma. i feel like if people knew i wasnt joking theyd think it was ridiculous that i have trauma from a past life or would say its not real, delusion or no. its not taken super seriously even if i do just label it as being a delusion but its what really happened to me and i at least want my triggers to not brought up like a funny 'haha remember that youre afraid of this?' way.

i cant expect a non schizospec person/someone who most likely kins for fun to get it but goddamnit seeing things that remind me all over again is distressing. especially when its trauma so unspeakable that ive decided to never tell anyone. both because saying it aloud would also shatter me beyond repair but the potential for being dismissed or told im Mentally ill. Yeah No Shit, how abt you get locked in a power struggle with an enemy that's pretty much impossible to win against and not come out of it with a skewed sense of reality. -mspa reader (#📖♠️)

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[fictionkinfessions]

I really hate the fandom’s very ooc interpretation of me as “uwu soft innocent bb” when I...killed people? For a good reason, they were bad, but that was my job? The sword was not decoration and I was not particularly innocent about why it was needed.

This is also true of people making me their autistic headcanon because of traits that are 100% canonically cultural. My religious group chose to encourage certain behaviors, it had nothing to do with my brain. Also, I didn’t speak English well because I. Was. An. Alien! Of course I’m bad at human customs, I’m not one!

(This is not at all aimed at people who headcanon/identify with nonhumans for comfort reasons, or against headcanons of characters as autistic. I do it too. It’s mostly just...toxic people who completely ignore canon, and attack anyone who tries to discuss real autistic representation.)

[problemstarchild]

"you should be grateful for american capitalism because we aren't outright murdering you for being disabled and we're not like smelly asia!!" ok i'll file that little packet of trash away in the garbage where it belongs

literally can't even fantasize about not being treated like shit and being held to an ablebodied neurotypical economically productive standard of worth without someone telling you to move to another country and shut your mouth because at least you're not dead