#abuse cw

[seagodofmagic]

all jokes aside…there’s something so sickening about the choice to “update” isabella by hypersexualizing her. it feels almost like the creative team wanted to inoculate the audience from any suspicion that a person who likes rough or submissive sex could ever possibly be abused. yikes

[flowercrowncrip]

Psychological abuse and death threats underneath.

I can’t stop thinking about the police officer’s face when I described my ex forcing me to watch a gory horror show about brutal murders for 6+ hrs nonstop then coming back and describing in huge amounts of detail how they fantasised about killing me, dismembering my body and making my face unrecognisable so I wouldn’t be visually identifiable. They also described how she’d get around certain forensic science techniques and how they’d dispose of my wheelchair so no one would be able to prove it was them who had killed me.

[aclowder]

thought we were over this

[goaltnding]

i wish you were a girl—wip

Flower remembers the shame he felt when his parents found him in bed with another guy. He was fifteen. It still feels like it happened yesterday, that hasn’t changed. It haunts him, the memory. His parents weren’t supposed to be home for hours, he thought. They’d went out on a date to some fancy restaurant and always stayed out late. The guy had ridden his bike there, leaned it against the front of the house, that’s how they knew. His mother escorted the boy out while his father’s eyes burned into him.

Flower remembers his mother’s face and his father’s voice as he yelled, he remembers how small he felt sat on the edge of his bed, he especially remembers the feeling of his father’s hand when he slapped him across the face. His father ripped his gold cross necklace off and threw it on the carpeted floor, it broke the clasp.

“T'ai-je élevé pour que tu sois une péde? Hein?” his father’s voice boomed. Tears rolled down his freckled cheeks one after the other.

Flower remembers how he clenched his fists at his sides, but it wasn’t out of anger. They were right, they hadn’t raised him to be that way, it was more so out of fear. That night when he was fifteen wasn’t the first time his father had hit him, and it definitely wasn’t the worst.

Once, when Flower was only about seven years old, he asked his mother if it was okay that he liked boys. He’d been taught from as early as he can remember that boys liking boys and girls liking girls was completely forbidden in the eyes of God. He thought to himself that surely they wouldn’t be mad at him, even if it was sinful, because he was their son and they loved him.

His mother looked at him with a scowl on her face but said nothing. The car was eerily quiet the rest of the ride home.

His father beat him when his mother told him what he’d said to her. He beat him so hard. Flower learned that day that even if his parents loved him, they wouldn’t accept having a queer son.

[sinnersmarch]

catch me peeping clips from Montreal of Lestat's crashout at Louis over his judgement of his mother's abuse and logging that visceral, raw emotion for my portrayal 👀❤️

[fatestheysband]

"this is for selfshippers whose f/os would ABHOR cutesy-wutesy stuff like [checks notes] Not Abusing Their Significant Others" if your partner treating you with the basic respect that should be afforded to you as a human fucking being is too "cutesy" for you then. uh. i hope you're in therapy? or that you're able to recover an untouched diary from the ruins of the exploded diary factory? why are you making this everyone else's problem

[decompose1]

i’m never going to stop feeling mad and betrayed that level 1/“low support needs” autistics literally never get to access any support at all at any point in our lives because we’re deemed “normal” enough to not need support and are diagnosed late and expected to live normal social lives and entirely support ourselves financially while we experience very high rates of depression, suicide, burnout, and substance abuse while we get blamed for the struggles of the community as a whole

(btw i agree that use of the r slur is disgusting and level 1 autistics need to stop talking over level 2-3 autistic people and denying that autism is a disability, i’m just frustrated that our specific struggles seem to be erased under the narrative that we are all the cause of ableism against autistic people. we are all experiencing ableism and struggling because our society is ableist, we should all be supporting each other. the level 1 autistic people i know irl understand that they’re disabled and need support, the loud voices on the internet are not indicative of real life attitudes in my experience)

You operate under a false assumption that level 3s get ""support"". I didn't get support. Being level 3 "obviously" autistic as a child didn't get me fucking anything but more ableism and abuse. Adults had a good reason to hate me. My parents and teachers had a good reason to abuse me. I was placed in special ed, sure, but it wasn't helpful at all. The teacher had no faith in us to the degree that instead of teaching us anything, or helping us at all, she sat in the corner scrolling through facebook for the whole class and left us to sit in silence. Any time i got upset, stimmed, made any noise, got overstimulated, had sensory issues, etc. i was "acting out" and abused for it. I remember one of my teachers, a grown adult man, grab my tiny wrists so tight i was crying it hurt so bad and physically dragging me out of the class. He then screamed at me for being a "problem child" and locked me out of the classroom. This was not an isolated incident- shit like this happened ALL THE TIME. Adults (teachers, social workers, therapists, etc) would often grab my hands and crush them together to stop me from stimming, and they'd always say "quiet hands!" in this horrible little baby voice they used for all the level 3 autistic kids. My friends' parents hated me. One would openly call me creepy and weird and tell the other parents there was something wrong with me and she thought i'd play too rough with the other kids because i was stupid. Doctors and employers are legally allowed to discriminate against me for the severity of my autism. I can't tell you how many medical things i've been forced to against my will because i'm seen as too autistic and thus too confused and stupid to make decisions about my own body. The doctors wouldn't even give me incontinence products (something i need BECAUSE MY AUTISM IS SEVERE AND CAUSES THAT) when i was in the emergency room because they thought they knew better than me and i humiliated myself in front of several of them because exactly what i thought would happen happened. Every choice is stolen from us and we are given no respect at all. Fuck you. You can go fuck yourself if you don't recognize the power you hold over me. The ability to mask is a privilege because PEOPLE WHO CAN'T MASK ARE ABUSED AND KILLED FOR IT. Asshole.

(they're referencing this post of mine.)

[fantasyinsanity]

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