11. Imagine there is a beast that craves attention. If you ignore it, despite being deadly, it will leave you alone. Could you live like that? Even if it possibly attacked others? Would you try and challenge something that unknown? 27. How far would you go to achieve a dream or ideal? Does it matter who suffers? Does it matter if you suffer?
A sly and roguish grin touched the Coyote’s lips, baring briefly teeth though it lacked the humor one might expect with such an expression. “Well,,,there;s always a beast, isn’t there?” he breached in rhetoric, a faint sniff following his words before he continued. “Multiple, really, at any given time. The ones you feed, or the ones you don’t. Internal, or external there’s always something lurking, ready to strike when you least expect.” He opened his palms, spreading his hands a bit as if to gesture in a red pill, blue pill sort of fashion.
“It all comes down to what you feed, and in the end, you’re always going to have to face that thing. Do you feed and give in to your baser instincts? To lash out, to compromise, to self-serve at the detriment of others? Hurting the people around you. Or do you feed the beast that protects the ones you love? Gives you strength, and helps you unleash hell on anything threatening your territory? Left unchallenged, the beasts inside are free to lash out and cause harm. Left unchallenged, the beasts outside were free to try and take the things I cared for.”
“In the end, you’re going to have to face that unknown. Challenge the thing that threatens your well-being and ultimately - destroy it. I’ve mastered my inner beasts, and drove off the beasts that masqueraded as allies. I’ve faced the things that threatened the people around me, both inside and out. And I will continue to do so moving forward. Taming and unleashing my own beasts to counter whatever else lurks in the shadows.”
“When it comes to dreams, there are times where it feels I’ve reached mine. Unexpectedly, I’ll admit. I never really dreamed of being a...husband, let alone a father, but in becoming both I’ve found a sincere purpose in my life. I always knew I was...looking for something and my days were spent in suffering, malcontent but stubborn seeking of fulfillment.”
“Many things challenged my wish for something greater. People stood in my way. Put up obstacles and barred me from any kind of true happiness. I suffered, but I suffered well knowing that I would come out victorious in the end. In a way, almost everything was an obstacle, most of all myself, and I dealt with them accordingly to get back to my Sun. To foster my daughter. My ideal now, I guess, is that they always stay happy and content.”
“It’s not a....complex thing to ask for, and simple enough, true. But...Dangerous, in its own way...because if it took razing the rest of the world and leaving it as ashes just to see those smiles, just to create that contentment - nothing on this plane of existence would be able to stop me. My Soul and Star. They’re my joy and pride, and happiness. And luckily, they are content with the world remaining whole, and content with me as I am. With us. I can’t ask for anything more. I didn’t, but...I’m glad I got it anyways.”
brief waifu and babby mention: @synne-spades
tagging: @thegildedgun - thanks for the ask man :D
