#abuse denial

[hexpatient]

the thing is that, when i was in the beginnings of figuring out the world and i said to therapsychiatrists "i am being abused and no one will help me, people hurt me and there is no justice etc" and they said im being irrational and its too negative and cognitive distortions and im insane and delusional victim mentality, i said

Ok Im going to really seriously keep trying this shit. this is like. an experiment. what is the norm for me when i tell "trusted adults/liscensed professionals" that im being abused? lets find out. lets see what happens.

and then ........ surprise surprise i exhausted all of my trusted adult options but 1 because i finally gave up. i told lots of therapists and debated them about reality because they refused to even consider it for a second. i reached out and spoke out and Asked For Help so many times to average people and to professionals, and i called hotlines and was stubborn and kept telling people and kept telling people and kept telling people:

Grams (grandmother like figure, no relation)

teacher 1

teacher 2

school guidance counsellor

psychiatrist 2

therapist 1

therapist 2

RNs at the psych inpatient place 1

social worker 1

social worker 2

social worker 3

social worker 4

psychiatrist in the ward

psychiatrist in the ward 2

RN at IOP

RN at IOP 2

RN at IOP 3

my aunt on at least 3 occasions

adult protective services

therapist 4

therapist 5

therapist 6

therapist 7

therapist 8

therapist 9

therapist in IOP 1

therapist in IOP 2

Lorie (mom's friend)

friend's mom 1

RNs at the psych inpatient place 2

social worker 5

psychiatrist 3

therapist at the clinic

the neurologist at that clinic

is this enough? i know theres more i just cant think of all of them off the top of my head.

all of these people either ignored me, gaslit me, blamed me, dismissed me, and or did nothing of any significance to stop the abuse or protect me at all.

i'd say the only 2 kind of successes i had were when i went to my neighbors for help after the domestic assault thing, and that one RN who told me she would call adult protective services with me. that didnt end up happening. its more than most but i still put her in the above list as a failure. idk. honorable mentions.

so theres some actual numbers although i did not list every single person i asked for help from, but 1/34 is piss poor beyond comprehension.

so dont ever tell me to "just ask for help" from a "trusted adult" or "liscensed professional" about being abused ever again, or at all.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[furiousgoldfish]

abuser: spends years meticulously isolating, grooming, trapping and sabotaging victim to the point where they don't know they're abused, blame themselves, think abuse is just normal, feel no confidence about any of their skills, have no one and no way of survival if they escape, and they're aware their lives are threatened if they try

society: well why didn't the victim just leave if they didn't like it :/

[furiousgoldfish]

It's always 'Don't talk about narcissistic abuse! Don't talk about narcissistic abuse!' and never 'Gee maybe we should stop these narcissists from abusing all those children and vulnerable people so then there wouldn't be any need to talk about narcissistic abuse' I wonder why

[furiousgoldfish]

abusers will come at you with ‘Why are you such a resentful little grudge-bearer, to go out of your way to remember all the horrible and cruel things I’ve done to you!’ when they’re rightfully called out

[furiousgoldfish]

Hi, thanks a lot for everything, but especially for talking about how people attack trauma victims online. I have seen people defending narcissists/denying the existence of narcissistic abuse and it is absolutely disgusting.

Yeah, it's been happening a lot, and I realized it's a very successful tactics to make our spaces unsafe. I want to fight to keep our little corners of the internet safe no matter what, and it's going to be okay as long as there's more of us safe in our knowledge that we're allowed to call out abuse, and we cannot be shamed for it.

Also, for everyone for everyone who is reading this, but forbidden to interact in fear of harassment, I appreciate you, and I'm glad you're all still here.