Okay... This is... Several days late and I couldn't think of anything for Harvest which is the day i planned to post this so....
DRDTTOBER DAYS 8-16
WARNING FOR IMPLIED CHAPTER TWO SPOILERS, SPOOKY STUFF, HANAHAKI DISEASE, GORE, ANGST, UNCANNY VALLEY STUFF, AND PINK BLOOD
Day 8 - Ignition
You may be wondering how it fits into ignition... But... I'm pretty sure Xander's eye is meant to be like sparks and fire (Also I had another drawing I was going to color with highlighters but I feel like I took too much pose inspiration from a different drawing...)
Day 9 - Utopia
MM XanTeruVid! Here's some highlighter Xander... I really wanted to color Xander with highlighters lol (I really wanted to make an animation about something in the AU but... Posing and trying to figure out how to do it is a bitch ._.)
Day 10 - Moonlight
So I drew Min as a werewolf but... I couldn't get that one scene in "Kiss the Girl" from The Little Mermaid sooo... I tried to draw David with a similar background but gave up lol
Day 11 - Butcher
I thought to myself "Hmmm... Who's least likely to be drawn for this" and for some reason came up with Whit and Eden... But then gave up on drawing Whit soooo it's only Eden in Yi Xi's outfit lol (I had thought about drawing someone in the butcher from Amanda the Adventurer)
Day 12 - Neon
Okay... What the fuck happened here? Well... I was going to draw Charles looking at a tube of neon, but I may or may not have fucked it up and forgot to take a picture of it prior... So I drew some chorb... One is meant to be like... the color of the reddish orange glow neon has?
Day 13 - Ignorance
Ignorance is bliss. Min is the Ultimate Student.
Day 14 - Stain
I don't like how it's hard to see that his gloves are all ripped up and his hands are meant to be stained with blood ngl
Day 15 - Debris
Flowers can be debris, right? I tried to draw stripped carnations and red anemones. Bonus points if you know why lol
Day 16 - Silhouette
I didn't know what to do, but when drawing a certain Whit sprite, I got reminded of analog horror so....
Maybe it’s the “avoidant” part of my “fearful avoidance,” but. I really just…don’t care if someone I’m attracted to romantically likes someone else, or doesn’t share those feelings. Like, you do you. We’re not dating or owe eachother anything, and it all boils down to autonomy and compatibility, anyway. (And let’s face it, I don’t believe I’ll ever be compatible with anyone in terms of physical intimacy and I’m not able to compromise that without bruising my own boundaries, so.) But also like. I’d just. Turn attraction “off” if I could reach inside my head and flip a switch. Sadly humans aren’t that simple. Absolutely unfair.
Nah. What does get me into the Fearful instead (and struggling with that FA push-pull of “keep away/please don’t leave”): whether or not someone even wants to be my friend. Especially when I also accidentally developed attraction to them.
Yeah so. I might just shove my kissing-repulsion (for me personally) off onto Shiro yet again (except he’s kinda a flux of neutral to repulsed. Y’know, kinda like how many aces are with sex. But for kissing.)
…because self-projection, I need this to be a thing for someone else too, and I need to see someone happy in a relationship that respects that boundary vs “fixing” it. Y’know. Again like how just sex repulsion and neutrality exist. Aaaaaand are flatout underrepresented in even fanon spaces. Like, despite Ace!Shiro being semi-common (at least among other aces) here on tumblr, ace shiro apparently isn’t a searchable tag over on ao3. (I’m not saying the tag isn’t used ever—just that Nothing pulls up if I try searching for it in additional tags. Literally. Blank search results. At least until I remove that tag, then it’s normal again.)
So yeah. My fanon Shiro? Both sex&kissing neutral-to-repulsed. ‘Cause so am I. And there’s a small bakery worth of other cakes. I just wanna homebake MY cake and see if others wanna try a slice.
