#act of will

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Peter Coyote, Victoria Tennant and Elizabeth Hurley in “Act of Will”

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Act of Will  -   ITV  -  September 15, 1989 - October 6, 1989

Drama / Miniseries (4 episodes)

Running Time: 200 minutes total

Stars:

Victoria Tennant as Audra Crowther

Kevin McNally as Vincent Crowther

Peter Coyote as Miles Sutherland

Elizabeth Hurley as Christina Crowther

Lynsey Baxter as Jane Sedgewick

Serena Gordon as Gwen Thornton

Jean Marsh as Eliza Crowther

Melanie Jessop as Laurette Crowther

Sheila Allen as Lady Dulcie Sedgewick

Richard Bebb as Sir Ralph Sedgewick

Judy Parfitt as Alicia Drummond

Simon Merrick as Percival Drummond

Stuart Milligan as Alex Newman

Gillian Bevan as Millie Arnold

Rebecca Callard as Maggie Crowther

Julian Gartside as Jeffery Freemantle

Andrew Castell as Mike Leslie

Ewan Hooper as Alfred Crowther

Ken Jones as Dr. Stalkey

Sheila Ruskin as Candida Sutherland

Fiona Walker as Matron Lennox

Sarah Winman as Kyle Newman

Rachel Robertson as Audra Aged 14

Jo Gabb as Christina Aged

Louisa Janes as Christina Aged 10

[thinknthots]

Self-Love

For some time, I am awful with duration, I have told acquaintances that I have fallen in love with myself. It is not unusual for me to blurt out feelings; I say things which I cannot understand its origin or logic. I have to spend time reflecting on the meaning of a passage that just appears in my head, or is voiced. Along with spontaneous passages, I am often given a synchronous event that helps me understand and give meaning to the words, or feeling.

Roberto Assagioli writes in his book, "Act of Will," "In the case of self-love, all depends on what we love in ourselves and how we love it. It is truly egotism if we love the egocentric and separative aspects in us, the craving of pleasure, possessions, and domination. But if we love what is higher and best in ourselves, what we are essentially, if we love our potentialities for growth, development, creative ability, and communion with others, then this love, devoid of egotism, urges us to live a life of higher quality. This love is then not only not an obstacle to loving others in the same way but, rather, a powerful means for doing so."

I like the word, "inkling." I have an inkling that I have fallen in love with Divine Awareness. Self-loathing and other acts of emotional sabotage have seemed to have disappeared; guilt, shame, regret, and self-condemnation have dissolved into this love.

I really do not know how meditation practices work. I have read much on the subject, and have been given different explanations, but at the heart of it, I do not get it. Nonetheless I see changes in my thinking and behavior that seem to correspond to an expansion of understanding.

Before I was thirty, I had an overwhelming fear of death. After doing some spiritual work, without intent, I noticed that the fear of death had dissolved. I was just unable to explain the reason, but the I felt the experience. I have an inkling that way back when, I was starting to disengage from the feeling that I was the body and mind. I feel deeply that I was never born, I will never die. Why? I wish I could give an exact explanation, but I cannot.

Of course, there are other behaviors that indicate there are some other things to do. Yet, I do not know what that something is, yet, I have complete faith that something will happen. It always does. What I do feel more confidently is that behaviors are more like symptoms than diseases. Behaviors are the barometer of the climate within me. Enough said.

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Being Me

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[williamsnowdon]

I assure you this conceit works its magic on button nymphs as well!

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(They’re not even real flowers shhhhh!!) The only true bloom is the luminous one sitting right next to me.

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USA Today is fit only to line a birdcage. As such, I am donating all of mine henceforth to my son-in-law. He also eats an inordinate amount of mustard from the bottle so there’s some form of parallel at work here, perhaps!