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[ilovecrxzy]

not particularly professional, but it is a step in the right direction to get over my anxiety about performing again.

booked an audition for a musical. the audition is on sunday and although i'm pretty shit at dancing as a general rule, i do catch on quite quickly and with practice and rehearsals (should i get any parts), i should be fine.

i have to come in with one song. preferably from a musical but anything to show my vocal range is fine. i'm really confident singing a particular Hugh Laurie song, but if they want it from a musical... would Dr.Horrible's Sing-Along Blog count do you think?

also, one short monologue. preferably from a play, but anything i'm confident doing. i want to do Sherlock's best man speech, but i should really pick something else from a different play, shouldn't i?

ughh. anxiety, hello again.

[ilovecrxzy]

open casting call tomorrow with dee

everyone wish us luck okay yes thank you

bless

[ilovecrxzy]

welp. tomorrow's the big day.

i had always wanted so desperately to act-- theatre had always been my life, and then there came musical theatre. and then after that, i began writing my own plays and producing them and finding every opportunity to act, but it wasn't enough. it was never enough.

i soon got the chance to audition for a web series, and boy did that ever take off fast. so fast, actually, that a spin-off series was also made not soon after. wherein i was the starring female.

i got the taste for semi-professional acting in front of a camera, and i just wanted more, more, more!

aaaaand so here i am today. a couple years later. shivering and worrying myself sick over tomorrow.

because tomorrow is the first day that i work on a professional set. with professionals. with celebrities. 

someone tell me that i'm not going to fuck it up somehow.

even if it's just "walk from here to here" fifty thousand times, i always have a habit of making myself out to be a fool. i'm clumsy. i've got anxiety. 

but i also have a dream, and through Hell and high water, i'm going to make it.