May 30
Heat Isn't what it used to be. It makes me nauseous, it makes me panic, I succumb to it so easily. I remember lying on the forest floor and wishing to be gone.
I stay in the AC now.
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Heat Isn't what it used to be. It makes me nauseous, it makes me panic, I succumb to it so easily. I remember lying on the forest floor and wishing to be gone.
I stay in the AC now.
I nearly lost my life in the woods while pregnant, in incredible heat and god I feel silly for even feeling this way. I feel like I shouldn't feel like I nearly died, I feel like I shouldn't have called for EMS or cops. I feel like I wasted resources. I feel like myself is a waste of resources right now, but I know that's the self doubt and self hatred. I wish I knew what to do with myself.
The flashbacks, both emotional and literal, are awful. I hate having to relive it over and over again. I dont want to remember it. I want it wiped from my memory.