reading aadtsotu and crying over a “what if”
(ARISTOTLE AND DANTE DISCOVER THE SECRETS OF THE UNIVERSE SPOILER WARNING)
you don’t really have to read this, i just wanna share
oh, and uh, slight angst warning (?)
k so i read aadtsotu a while back, right, and in the midst of reading it, i had a full-on breakdown on a “what if” thought
it was during the time dante got assaulted, i think ?? the whole daniel situation, maybe
so i was sittin there (barbecue sauce on my titties) in my bathroom at 2 am, taking a moment to breathe, from already crying a couple moments prior to, (bc, well, addtsotu) when my brain went, “what if dante’s parents come to the conclusion that it’s safer for dante in chicago and take him away from ari?” and i was sobbing--trying to keep quiet bc my family was asleep and the walls were not soundproof--because, you know, what if? what if they did? what if they were planning to and dante would have to be away from ari again and they couldn’t be together? they’d keep in touch, sure, but would it be the same? would it be the same for ari, not being able to see dante’s beautiful face and infectious smile and hearing his lovely voice? would ari fall back into the rabbit hole of solitude and uphold his reputation of being untouched and intimidating? would dante ever learn that he liked ari? would he go back to his old habits of being socially skilled but not really letting anyone in? what would happen to ari and dante if they were pried apart?
out of the entire book, that what-if question hurt me the most. i’m beyond grateful it didn’t happen, but. still. triggered the biggest lump in my throat, i tell you.
anyway, hope you have a good day x