#admin afra talks

[afra-blueraz]

Hello everyone.

Well, I honestly don't know where to start. I've been through so much in the past few months. I feel like talking about it and repeating such memories won't change anything in me.

Losing the love of my life was a terrible and difficult change. It's been more than five months and I've come to the conclusion that I can't go on like this. I decided to make a change to make myself feel better. And I remembered how much this fandom brings me joy and happiness. Although I haven't fully recovered from this trauma yet, I decided to get back into the fandom. Maybe getting back into writing and drawing can make a positive change for me. I'm sure my dear boyfriend would want the same for me. And I still have hope for freedom and a better future.

I want to finally write that series of novels I've always wanted for this fandom and I decided to start soon. And I'd like to slowly get back into drawing. Today I'm publishing a new post on my main blog @dia-souls again and gradually increasing my activity.

But there's one thing. I'm not in a very good situation right now. I'm going through a tough time and I know you understand and I appreciate that. I might start writing commission soon. Maybe in a month or so, and I have to say that due to my limitations, this is only possible through Patreon. I would appreciate your support to help me get through these tough times. Thank you all.

[afra-blueraz]

Admin Afra 🦋:

Hello everyone. I know that many people have been messaging me and asking how I am, especially after the war in my country when I completely disappeared. And I really apologize if I caused you any concern by disappearing. Although I was in touch with a few of my close friends like Moni and Christine, even if only briefly. But now I'm here and I want to give a full explanation of my situation.

Well, first of all, I've to say that seven months ago, after a difficult experience, I decided to focus on myself and my healing. And it was going well. In fact, great progress and I was ready to rejoin fandom for Christmas or the anniversary of my main blog @dia-souls. I was completely recovered until a month ago, hell began in my country. And when I say hell, I'm not kidding.

Protests began against the government in my country due to economic and livelihood problems and we hoped to fight for freedom and win. But what happened was that the government answered us with bullets. They cut off the internet and cut off our connection to the rest of the world. And according to published statistics, it has killed at least 36,000 people so far.

I'm sorry to say this, but I'm no longer alive. I have no heart left. I have no reason to live or hope to continue. 6 of my dearest friends are dead. 3 of my relatives were murdered. And my fiancé was killed. That's right, my fiancé. My sweet, loving boy. The kindest, most precious person in my life. I never revealed that I had a boyfriend. We got engaged two months ago and we had hopes for a great future. But now I'm left alone. Without the love of my life. And I wish I was dead. I wish I could join my friends and my fiancé.

It's been two weeks since my fiancé's death, and now that I have limited access to the internet, I feel ready to talk about it.

Next, I have to say about myself. The last plan I had to return to this fandom was the anniversary of my main blog @dia-souls , which I prepared a post for. I will publish that post on the anniversary of the blog, and I don't know when I can return. I had a lot of plans for my blog, but right now I need to be alone for a while. I need to get over these events and this great sadness. Thank you all for asking about me, I really appreciate you.

Maybe one day I can go back and write that long novel for Yui that I always wanted to. Maybe one day I can put more emotion into that novel and even write my own story.

My only hope was freedom. My fiancé's hope, my friends' hope, and the people of Iran's hope was freedom. I hope we can achieve it.

And my country may cut off internet again so goodbye till then.

In the hope of freedom. 🇮🇷 🖤

[afra-blueraz]

My Missing Valentine

My life will never be the same without you. This was supposed to be our first Valentine's as engaged couples. We were supposed to build a dream life together. But you're gone. How am I supposed to build that life without you?

I don't know how to describe how much I miss you these days. I miss the days you sent me flowers and gifts to my dorm. I miss the days my friends laughed at your innocent gifts. I miss the way you looked at me. I miss the library we were supposed to build together. I miss how you always supported me in writing and drawing. I miss you. Come back to me. Let's go home.

All I can say is that we are still fighting for freedom. I'm fighting too. Either we will be free or I'll join you. And if one day we are free, I’ll tell your story to the whole world. Our story. I keep our story alive.

(Sorry everyone. I never meant to involve you in my personal life. But I feel like I needed this. Thank you for understanding.)

[afra-blueraz]

Leave us alone Israel.

Please we don't want War. Please don't kill our children. I don't want to live in a world where I see children are dying in an unwanted war. Israel Please leave us alone. Iranian people never wanted war. Please leave our country alone. Please please please stop killing our kids.

[afra-blueraz]

Happy 20th Birthday

Happy 20th birthday to me. I've lived for two decades. I've experienced bitter and sweet things, and I can't describe how rewarding and sweet the experience of this fandom and falling in love with Yui was. This kiss is my birthday gift from my love Yui ^^

I have reached a new stage in my life as an adult and I am happy to be here now and soon I will be expanding my painting and writing business internationally. My collection will be published soon and I am very excited to introduce it to you and I can't wait for it to be translated into English so that I can have the opportunity to publish in other countries as well.

And now that I'm on vacation, I have a great opportunity to return to my beloved fandom, draw again, and continue my old novels. I'm glad this opportunity came up and thank you for being with me all these years.

[afra-blueraz]

Will you continue daylight analysis for M and T Brothers? Plsplsplsplspls

I definitely will. But the thing is, I'm not in a very stable situation right now. So I don't want to put pressure on myself and do anything that's going to stress me out or make me feel bad. I love this fandom so much and my decision to come back was purely and simply to make myself feel good. Right now, I'm focusing on doing things that actually make me feel good. Writing and drawing things that just make me feel good. Remember, I'm in recovery and my goal is just to make myself feel good. Thank you for understanding.

[afra-blueraz]

⚠️ Important talk with DL fandom ⚠️

Don't tell fandom is dying.

Lately, I have noticed that many people are complaining that DL fans are less and claim that this fandom is dead.

Dear friends, please never use this word. This word has a very negative effect on the spirit of people who still enjoy this fandom.

Besides all this, no fandom will ever die until no one posts about it. Even if only one person posts, then that fandom is still active and alive.

It is true that the number of likes and views of posts has decreased compared to previous years, but there is nothing wrong with that. Remember that you are not in a fandom to get likes. You are here because you enjoy sharing your ideas, stories, drawings, etc with others, even if it is just one person.

The whole purpose of being in a fandom is happiness and fun, not more likes or more followers.

If your motivation for leaving the fandom is the low number of likes or the number of people in the fandom, I ask you not to do this. Even if only one person likes your post, it means that you are valuable to them and they enjoy reading your posts.

All fandoms have high days and dark days. Unfortunately, recently, due to the low activity of Rejet, the presence of fans in the DL fandom has decreased, but there is nothing wrong with it. As long as Rejet keeps the names of its characters alive and fans post, the fandom is still alive.

Don't be afraid to post because of low views or low likes. Even one view or even one like is valuable and keeps this fandom alive.

Fandom never dies because fans keep it alive. So don't discourage each other with disappointing and negative words. If you are happy with the fandom, keep having fun even with your few friends. Let's hope that one day the fandom will rise again.

Stay safe and happy.

[afra-blueraz]

I just received my first salary as a teacher. Well, now I feel that I am rich and I don't need anyone 😎🤑. Bye bye guys. I'm going to travel around the world with my salary 😎.

Kidding my salary as a student is very low compared to professional and experienced teachers 🥲.

Hmmmm I guess I will just buy new Yui merches and new glasses 👉👈☺️.