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[outsiders-owen]

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Pastry said you wanted to meet?

I- Yeah, yeah. Yeah, I guess- I guess I did say that, I-

We should go where no one will see us. They all think you're dead or something.

Do you think I'm stupid? Owen, I- I want to be able to trust me, but every single time that's happened, it hasn't ended well.

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Apo, do you remember way back when? I made you a promise, then.

...What? What are you talking about?

I said, and I quote: "Apo, of course I'm not going to hurt you. Never in a million years. I'll do a lot of things, but I will never hurt you. Ever."

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And a lot of things have- have happened, and I- I don't really know who I am right now, or what I believe. Hell, half of me thinks I should lock you up right now- NO! Sorry, sorry- I'm not going to, I'm just- don't leave, please-

...Owen, I don't- I don't know about this...

Apo, please. Please.

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And- and I never told you this- but after I learnt that you, you flipped the lever, I went to Soup about it. And I talked to her. And she told me- she told me- she told me that you'd had my back through thick and thin, and this was just one slip-up. She said you did an awful thing, but- but you're allowed to forgive people. She told me that fear makes people act strangely, and- and she said you were feeling so much fear.

Owen-

Let me finish.

I don't-

P- hhhh. I can't- please.

Are you crying?

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As- let me keep talking. This is important.

Because then when you were in jail, I wrote you that letter, do you remember?

I- yes, Owen, of course I remember-

I don't know- I don't know how that ended up for you, or how you felt about that, but what I do know is that- is that when I walked into- into that prison, barely breathing, and let you out, you-

You helped me. You hadn't seen me in months, and you helped me, and I don't- I don't-

Breathe. You're- Owen, you're going to choke on your tears, you need- you need to sit down-

SHUT UP!

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I'm sorry- I- I need to keep talking, please let me keep talking-

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Th- thank you. And when I got my memories back- I don't know- I-

I want to be better. I was happier when I- I don't know. I still think- your kind- is not to be trusted, and I think you're liars, and thieves, and-

Hhh.

But I'm- I've decided, I'm just going to sit tight, and- and I'm not going to kill you.

What a relief.

I promised. I don't break my promises.

You've hurt me in the past-

Before I made that promise. Past resets, past lives.

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So if I'm to believe... this, then... what's next? Why did we meet? Do you have some grand plan to get us out of here, or-

We met up because I missed you, you idiot.

oh

You're my best friend, I can't- I can't believe I've killed you, so many times, I- I'm sorry. And that'll never be enough, never, but I am. I am so, so sorry.

Apo, I love you, and I miss you, and I'm sorry.

That's- that's all I can offer.

oh.

I love you too.

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What?

You heard me.

But I hurt you. I- I killed you. I stabbed you, and called you vile, and- and I don't-

I used to tell you I loved you, didn't I?

I mean, yes, but-

And I remembered everything then. Owen, I will always forgive you. No matter what. You're my anchor, here, and every time the story resets, those months when we're the best of friends, before I pull the lever- because I have to pull the lever, every time, I have to- that's the time I look forward to. That's- that's my favorite part of life.

F- fuck-

I thought you didn't swear-

Oh my god, you are actually- holy shit, bro, clean up those tears-

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Do you, like, want a hug? Or something?

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It's okay if not-

Sorry, it's just- you're a demon, and I know you're not like the others, but I can't-

Okay, so first off, we're gonna need to work on that racism, hooooly moly. Secondly, you've hugged me plenty of times before, and never contracted whatever deadly demon desease you seem to think you're gonna get. So bring it in.

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pt pt ptp tp pt

OH-

I didn't mean run into me at full pelt, I-

Too bad.

...I missed you.

I missed you too.

[rentheadcanons1996]

What happened with mark and maureen in the nytw version?? I'm new to the fandom and SUPER curious about different versions of the show

Oh man I am SO GLAD you asked. So. First you should know that in the NYTW version Maureen is EXPLICITLY a lesbian - “I’m over men”, refers to herself as the d-word, repeatedly says she won’t go back to Mark whereas in later versions like Bway her sexuality is more ambiguous & closer to bi.

This is important because Mark in the NYTW version is just...kind of a dick? No not kind of, he IS a dick. The song where he goes to fix Maureen’s equipment is called “You’ll Get Over It” and is Maureen saying Mark will get over her, and Mark saying she’ll get over her lesbian phase. It’s really catchy but for obvious reasons super problematic. (Obviously the show never says this Mark is RIGHT.) He just keeps saying things like “This is just a phase, like girls and horses!” “You never even wore flannel shirts! / You never even liked K.D. Lang!”

And then in La Vie Bohème, OH BOY. He fucking ASKS MAUREEN TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM IN THE BATHROOM. Maureen, of course, refuses since she is a lesbian and tells him off. (In the demo they DO have sex in the bathroom.)

By the end of the show he gets a little better but he does also follow up Mimi & Roger’s I Should Tell You moment with “I finished the film” and Maureen just goes “that’s great” in the most sarcastic tone imaginable. Sarah Knowlton is really good at this more sarcastic Maureen, but I understand why Idina replaced her later.

Mark is also more of an activist, as I’ve mentioned, and when Alison keeps degrading homeless people he defends them - “Last year filthy bum!” “Person!” “Okay, filthy person!” - but with Maureen, he’s just...a horny bastard of a straight man.

Maureen isn’t too much better, her relationship with Joanne is a lot more unhealthy in this version, and that comes from Joanne too. But she at least isn’t like Mark.

[incorrectstanleyparablequotes]

The Narrator: *slaps the Office's wall* This bad boy can hold so many endings.

[scriptlgbt]

Hello! I have a trans character in my story and I wanted approval for how I reveal his identity and how to fix it (PS call him E). Basically it's the future and he's a police officer and the MC is his coworker and is trying to find missing evidence, a small pill bottle. MC was given an identical one labeled Cyanide. E has an identical bottle of Testosterone and when MC goes through his desk, E surprises him and the bottles get switched. MC up caring more about the lost cyanide, but is this okay?

I'm afraid I'm not entirely sure which part of this you want us to advise you on. I'm not quite sure how the cyanide would end up lost if the bottles were switched, but it's fine for your MC to think of that as more of a big deal than E's trans status, as long as he isn't too flippant or dismissive. By this I mean that it would be much better for your main character to say something like:

"Honestly, that doesn't affect how I see you at all. You don't need to worry. Now can you help me find the other bottle?"

Rather than something like:

"It doesn't affect me, I don't care, let's move on."

Just, be sensitive. :)

However, there is one problem with your premise - testosterone does not currently come in pill form. It has been made in the past, but it's very dangerous and causes significant damage to the liver. Testosterone is usually injected or applied to the skin as gel. But you said your story is set in the future, so maybe by then a safe form of pill testosterone has been developed - just remember if you take that route that it won't be representative of the current trans experience. Maybe you could add a line somewhere in your story to the effect: "recent scientific advances finally made testosterone safe and manageable in pill form"?

-Admin Felix

[outsiders-owen]

I have so much origami to share, and this isnt even all of what ive made!

Ok the first group is some of the various dragons ive made, these are a favorite of mine which is part of why theres so many.

Then ive got a few samurai hats

A bunch of these paper spiky balls that i have no clue the actual name of. Most of these take 12 or 30 pieces of paper, depending on how many points i want it to have.

A plethora of paper stars

A couple of hearts and a kite i made for a school project

A pair of birds

2 massive ninja stars, theyre a little beat up because they're like 4 years old at this point

A cute little box

And lastly a cool fidgety thing. It spins, but i couldn't really capture that well.

I honestly enjoy the process of making origami things more than the end product most of the time. It gives me something to do with my hands, and is just relaxing to me :D

-Sword Voice

These are really pretty, Sword. I might try to make some of my own... although, it may not be that good at first. Maybe I'll practice for a bit before showing you Voices...

I like the spinny thing the most, I think.

[outsiders-owen]

Do you love Apo? Do you sincerely want to keep him safe? I'm sure he would love to see you, if you wished to try and find each other. He would be less thrilled to get locked up.

What will you do to try and get some company in the maze, other than the voices? To actually see someone?

-Stone Voice

I- Voices, please- I can't answer these questions. I can't do it.

yes i love him of course i love him how could i not he's apo

Like I said, if we meet up, I'll just talk to him. I won't-

I won't do anything else.

For now.

[outsiders-owen]

I’m lonely. I want someone to talk to :(

everything is sooo boring right now, nothing is happening.

Although… Goat Voice, you sound familiar.

Anyway, Owen, how has your day been? Today I ate an unholy amount of chocolate.

Wishing I had more chocolate,

Gilded Voice

Hm. Well, I'm here, I suppose.

...not that I can outrun you Voices, anyway. You're here with me wherever I go, no matter what I try to shut you out.

My day has been decent. I've done some gardening, and some planning. I still need to jail the Demons.

Although, I've been thinking... maybe I've gone soft. Maybe I do need to kill them. I mean... it hasn't worked before, but- I remember this time. I'll know how to convince the rest of the Clearing that it's the right thing to do.

Imprisonment is weak.

my father would be so disappointed if i went through with such a cowardly strategy

[outsiders-owen]

I can gladly show you my animation! :D

Also it seems to be raining a lot in the clearing thanks to a couple of the voices. This is definitely a storm i wouldnt want to be caught in, but i really enjoy the rain! It doesn't rain super often where i live, but it actually rained today, which is very nice because it cooled down quite a lot because of that.

I hope everyone else got out of the storm too.

Feel free to ask me some questions too if you'd like! Id be happy to talk some more :D

- Sword Voice

Oh my goodness, Sword Voice, this is exquisite! I'm extremely impressed. The color is amazing, and the animation is so impressive and smooth! I am in awe at your skill.

It has been raining a lot, yeah- I'll be honest, I also quite enjoy the rain. It's a wonderful kind of feeling, to have water pouring down all around you. I'm glad that you got some where you live, and I'm glad that it cooled down a bit.

I do wonder how Apo's doing in the Maze alone, though, there isn't- there isn't a lot of cover in there-

Oh, what do I care, he's just an awful demon anyway i don't care i don't

I'm sorry, Sword, I- your animation is lovely, thank you for sharing it with me, I think- I think I need to go take a quick breather, um-

Yeah.