#admin z

[iwishmylifewereadrama]

yes three team leaders are in love with her (including you) - Cheng Ge you have competition!!!

-Z

[h4rmonyland]

[bnhaclaimedmysoul]

a letter: from me to you

hello lovelies,

well it’s admin z....it’s been quite some time hasn’t it???

it’s been quite a while since my official hiatus ended but as you may have noticed, i haven’t been uploading stuff. and that isn’t because i don’t want to, it’s because i can’t.

every time i take a look at our inbox and after hours of contemplation, i begin typing out a request there’s something always bothering me. sure words flow out normally, i am able to type as time goes on, but what bothers me is the feeling of hollowness whenever i’m writing. it’s like my sub consciousness takes over my brain and magically whips out stuff that i can’t keep track of for some reason.

i no longer feel the joy i used to feel when i started out. i no longer feel like i connect with what i write and i just can’t get my head around it. and so i stopped and decided i needed to do some deep retrospection.

so after hours and hours of figuring out the root cause of my inability to feel joy while writing something on this is the fact that i have fallen out of love with bnha. i have fallen out of love with bnha and i can’t seem to get back into it. i no longer feel compelled to search up stuff for bnha, nor do i feel an emotional connect with the characters themselves. i feel quite lifeless and i guess i have reached the stage of being burnt out. 

every thing feels the same and i can’t figure what i can do to change up stuff. being an only fluff blog has been hard and i feel like i am not doing enough to keep everyone engaged. although i do not read a lot, i do come across writing blogs and i feel like a failure.

crippling reality hits me and i feel how cold i am with my followers and mutuals. i feel how disconnected i am with my audience as an admin. you all are some of the sweetest people but i literally can’t figure what i want to do to let you know that every single 4024 of you are precious to me. 

as of now, everything is just a huge mess and i feel like continuing to write requests while feeling disconnected is like betraying all of you and i desperately don’t want to do that. so i want to tell you this.

 i’ll wait. 

i’ll wait for the day i hopefully begin falling in love with bnha again.

i’ll wait for the day i hopefully gain more confidence. 

i’ll wait for the day where i can come hopefully back to this blog and begin writing again.

it may take a day, a week, a month or a year, but i do hope that i can come back to this blog as a writer.

 until then, please take care of yourself and i hope you stay happy because you all deserve all the love in the world. so see y’all again~

sincerely,

admin z

[ikonsmut]

f**k being friends

word count: 5.5K

summary: you and hanbin come to a realization that you should’ve long ago. 

pretending.

it wasn’t always easy.

pretending that you didn’t have feelings for you best friend of six years. you’d first notice your feelings around the time you both began high school. his exterior changed, and it made you see him in a different way. he was much more intelligent and respectful. more than any other guy you’ve known. and that charmed you, more than anyone else could. you knew your feelings were serious, but never spoke on your thoughts.

many days you’d attempt to get his attention, yet you’ve always seemed to fail. but your buddy, hanbin, was clueless. there wasn’t much else you could do. so you moved on and went on many dates with other potential suitors. it was fun, having sex with many people, testing and trying new things. but it wasn’t enough. in the back of your mind the same person kept reappearing.

hanbin.

the same guy who disapproved of your dates, probably from jealousy, but yet was the same guy who refused to admit his own feelings for you.

and you couldn’t shake the thoughts. 

thoughts of what you two could be and how things could be different. 

yet here you two were, in his bedroom watching tv. 

you both sat up against the head board, staring at the screen. a few inches apart, silent.

you weren’t sure if you were both highly interested in the program that played or if it was just an awkward silence. probably the second.

“d-did you want food?” he muttered glancing at you.

deciding on a simple shake of the head, you looked down as your phone lit up. 

as you lifted it, hanbin peaked up, glaring over at the device, almost more curious than you were. 

“who’s that?” hanbin asked, almost in a whisper.

you raised an eyebrow almost annoyed, replying with a snarky “why would you care?” 

your remark left hanbin baffled, his mouth open a gasp in confusion.

“why would you say that y/n?”

it was the littlest things like this that set you off. this had gone on too far and it needed to end. 

“you always worry about who i’m talking to or fucking, yet you don’t do anything about it!” you yelled. “you act so oblivious hanbin. but i know.”

“oh you know?” he whispered leaning in closer to your face.

you didn’t expect your heart to beat as fast as it did in this moment. but, you never thought this moment would happen. while he was now only inches from your lips, all you could think was ‘fucking finally’.

hanbin’s lips crashed into yours, nearly taking your breath. in no time, he removed your shirt before grabbing the back of your neck insuring that you wouldn’t be escaping the position any time soon. he then leaned in forward, his lips never leave yours as he laid you both down.

his hands reached under your shirt before traveling up your side, leaving goosebumps. you arched your back, allowing slight moans to leave your mouth as hanbin began kissing your neck, nibbling along the way. marking his, now, territory. 

when you’d least expected it, his hand traveled beneath your panties, as he drug his fingers along your slit before roughing pressing into your clit. a sharp gasp escaped your lips as you wrapped your arms around his neck tighter. he chuckled smiling into your neck before pecking it. his pace on your clit became quicker which made you a panting mess. you were wet before the situation even began, you couldn’t imagine how wet you were now. 

before you had the chance to cum, hanbin removed his hand before looking up at you, a smile on his face. 

“what the fuck hanbin.” you growled.

“you deserve to be teased.” he mumbled pulling his shirt off, before sliding his pants down, then tugging on yours. “now i’m going to fuck you like i’ve always wanted to.”

he grabs you by the hips, slamming into you. you cry out from pain as much as the pleasure. he gives you a moment to adjust to him, hands slowly gripping harder. when you push your hips into his, he slowly pulls out before slamming back into you. 

one of his hands releases your hips and reaches your clit, rubbing in small, tight circles. you moan, feeling that familiar tightness building in your lower abdomen. his fingers move faster, but his hips keep the same pace. your muscles tighten around him, and he lets out a small moan.

you moan out his name loudly as you reach your climax, muscle tensing. his hands reconnect with your hips before slowing his pace, he refused to finish anytime soon. seeing you bothered was such a pleasure to him, he’d hate to miss it. 

you slump slightly, allowing your muscles to rest only for him to speed up again. your eyes were closed from enjoyment, but when you opened them you stared at hanbin, his face tense in concentration, brows furrowed, lips slightly parted. through the dark room, lit only by the television screen, he looked amazing. you’d love to get used to this sight. 

his hand drops down to your breast, kneading before rolling and pinching your nipple between his thumb and forefinger. your moan comes out hoarse, but he moans in appreciation and you feel his cock twitch inside you. his hand moves to your other breast, and he gets a bit sloppy, thrusts uneven as he get close to his climax. 

you gasp as he pinches almost a little too hard, but yet you moaned, the feeling more pleasurable then painful. your sounds make him cum, and you tighten your muscles around him. after gathering his thoughts, he let out an exhausted giggle before nuzzling his head into your neck, not wanting to remove himself from you yet.

“we should’ve fucked long ago.” he mumbled.

“about time you say it.”

[thots4daze]

y'all ever wanna soak in the tub but when you go to set it all up you realize you ain't got any bath bombs or shiiit? like biiiiitch im tryna get me suds on

no just me

[winnersmut]

it’s been awhile

it’s been too long and personally i feel bad. i apologize for disappearing w/o reasoning. it’s not that i don’t want to post, but it’s hard going about it. i could get an idea but stop halfway through because i’m uninspired. i don’t want to just post anything, because it wouldn’t show the effort i’ve put into it. as a content creator i always ponder and take my longest working on something because i don’t want to settle for less. i don’t want provide something i didn’t put my all into. i feel terrible knowing that people waited for our content and received nothing for so long. i want things to change and i’m not asking for forgiveness but i just hope you all understand.

[biased-writes]

So uh...

WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?!

I (admin rain) haven’t been an admin long compared to the others but on their behalf id like to thank you guys so much 😊

[sunnymeadrp]

would you rather scott eastwood or paul wesley?

Omg I’d sell my SISTER for Scott Eastwood tbh but either would be welcomed!!!