“This whole time I’ve been using you to make me feel better, and you never caught on. You never caught on. I want you to hate me now, but I don’t think you’re even able to.” //BUT NOT FOR THEIR MAIN VERSE BC I CAN'T HANDLE THAT PAIN. some au w a younger and grumpier luth pls. college boyfriends? who knows.
(( college boyfrans yes pls ))
All he can do is S T A R E at Luther,a myriad of emotions twisting his gut---among them: betrayal, heartbreak, even FEAR.
To Luther, Adam had given so much TIME and LOVE and promises. Most of what he’d done, he’d done to make the other SMILE. All he wanted was for Luther to be HAPPY--- ---he’d thought the sentiment was mutual.
But now all he can do is STAND THERE and STARE at Lutherand wonder what is is he did wrong.CONFUSION and DEFEAT fight for place upon his countenance,and the heaviness of the words spat at him make his six-foot frame slouch.
He doesn’t even know what to say. If that’s truly how Luther feels about him, is there anything he CAN say?
He feels like the butt of a bad joke. Like stringing him along had all been for AMUSEMENT. Now he’s left feeling hollow.
“That’s...” shitty. “It’s, uh...” terrible, holy fuck. “---I’m glad you told me now. Um. I’ll just, uh. Let myself... out...”