what is 'much'?

you have nothing? i have nothing!. indie jess mariano, written by becca.

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STRANGER THINGS SENTENCE MEME

episode 005-008.

‘hands up!’

‘how else do you think i got in here?’

‘drink. it’ll calm your nerves.’

‘i knew he was alive.’

‘don’t look at me like that.’

‘you’re not gonna like this, but i think you need to seriously consider the possibility that all this… it’s in your head.’

‘the stupid radio kept going in and out.’

‘it’s like riddles in the dark…’

‘i’m here as long as you need me, okay?’

‘how are you holding up?’

‘can we talk? alone?’

‘you need to leave.’

‘you being here… you’re just making things worse, like always.’

‘look, i’m on your side.’

‘take that down. it’s inappropriate.’

‘can’t he just, you know, outsmart the bad guys?’

‘sometimes the bad guys are smart, too.’

‘i’m gonna get you some new crayons.’

‘you want to go out there.’

‘we might not find anything.’

‘this is a terrible idea.’

‘you could tell someone, but they’re not gonna believe you.’

‘i’ll tell her when this thing is dead.’

‘we were wondering if you had time to talk?’

‘science is neat. but i’m afraid it’s not very forgiving.’

‘i’ll take care of this, alright?’

‘funny, right? they keep doing our job for us.’

‘it’s a shame what they’ve done to this family.’

‘do you even understand how a compass works?’

‘i hope that’s not meant for me.’

‘listen, i’m really sorry. i mean, even before you threatened me with a baseball bat.’

‘i was a total dick.’

‘i’ll call you later.’

‘you never cared about him!’

‘get out!’

‘you need me here.’

‘you’re a mess!’

‘maybe i’m crazy.’

‘you ever shot a gun before?’

‘he made me kill a rabbit.’

‘i cried for a week.’

‘screw that.’

‘i told you not to call me.’

‘even after everything that happened, i don’t regret any of it.’

‘do you think she’s acting weird?’

‘how far?’

‘is that okay?’

‘turn back.’

‘just hold on a little longer, oaky?’

‘don’t take it so personally, okay? i don’t like most people.’

‘you know, i was actually starting to think that you were okay.’

‘she’s trying to sabotage our mission.’

‘just leave her alone!’

‘fresh blood.’

‘it’s not safe.’

‘they bugged my place.’

‘this whole time, you were right.’

‘she used us!’

‘she’s like a stray dog!’

‘screw you!’

‘for all we know, it’s her fault.’

‘what is wrong with you?!’

‘why would you do that?!’

‘i’m not nine anymore.’

‘you’re worried about her?’

‘would you just shut up?’

‘do you want the lights off or…?’

‘couldn’t sleep?’

‘every time i close my eyes, i just keep seeing that thing.’

‘you wanna go back out there?’

‘it seems to hunt at night, like a lion or a coyote.’

‘i can’t believe she didn’t come back.’

‘she said it wasn’t safe.’

‘i shouldn’t have yelled at her.’

‘all of you were being a bunch of little assholes!’

‘she didn’t mean to hurt you.’

‘i’m not spending my time on her anymore.’

‘i’m going to the gate.’

‘don’t be frightened.’

‘they’re just here to watch.’

‘whatever it is, it can’t hurt you.’

‘it’s reaching out to you.’

‘don’t turn away from it this time.’

‘are you lost?’

‘mouth breather.’

‘you know you have to pay for those!’

‘you may have seen him on the news.’

‘i told you, you’re wasting your time.’

‘what matters is that he’s your best friend.’

‘i call bull on your logic.’

‘you read any stephen king?’

‘the doctors all say it’s a coping mechanism.’

‘what’s the weirdest part? me or the bear trap?’

‘uh-oh! she looks upset…’

‘you don’t want to be known as the lying slut now, do you?

‘kick his ass!’

‘only love makes you that crazy.’

‘you’re dead.’

‘i know you did something to me.’

‘i’ll cut him right now!’

‘that’s right! you better run!’

‘she’s our friend and she’s crazy!’

‘you come back here and she’ll kill you!’

‘i’m sorry…’

‘i’m the monster.’

‘you saved me.’

‘still pretty?’

‘i’m happy you’re home.’

‘the bad men are coming!’

‘they’re on us!’

‘that was – awesome.’

‘friends don’t lie.’

‘why is he wearing handcuffs?’

‘i wanna see you in my office.’

‘what happened to her hair?’

‘we want to help him.’

‘do you have any idea where he might have gone?’

‘this place is like a fortress.’

‘you’re sorry? that is not good enough.’

‘you act like you’re all alone out there in the world, but you’re not.’

‘a psychotic child broke his arm!’

‘she doesn’t even look like a girl.’

‘the cops should just lock him up forever.’

‘for once in your life, shut your damn mouth!’

‘you never even liked her because she’s not miserable about you.’

‘she actually cares about other people.’

‘you gonna fight me now, too?’

‘this is an emergency. do you copy?’

‘we know you’re in trouble.’

‘if you’re there, pick up.’

‘we can protect you and we can help you.’

‘this is our government. they’re on our side.’

‘maybe this is all a trap and the bad men are coming to get us right now!’

‘is that my dress?’

‘i can’t find them.’

‘how do we make her better?’

‘i can find them.’

‘i have a science question.’

‘do you know anything about sensory deprivation tanks? specifically how to build one?’

‘why are you keeping this curiosity door locked?’

‘we’ll be careful.’

‘it’s not gonna snow next week, is it?’

‘i don’t want you anywhere near this, alright?’

‘i’m gonna find him. you gotta trust me on this.’

‘what did she even eat?’

‘she really likes eggos.’

‘i knew you were acting weird.’

‘no more secrets, okay?’

‘from now on, we tell each other everything.’

‘you’re a very brave girl. you know that, don’t you?’

‘i am gonna be there with you the whole time.’

‘if it ever gets too scary in that place, you just let me know, okay?’

‘gone.’

‘we’re right here.’

‘don’t be afraid. i’m right here with you.’

‘i’ve got you.’

‘it’s okay. you’re safe.’

‘you’re okay.’

‘you tell him i’m coming.’

‘hurry.’

‘you did so good…’

‘i’m gonna find him.’

‘i wanna finish what we started.’

‘i want to kill it.’

‘let me out!’

‘i want to save them.’

‘i can’t do that. not without your help.’

‘i know who you are…’

‘i know what you’ve done.’

‘now you’re asking for my help? go to hell.’

‘did i stutter?’

‘i know you went a little too far this time and you messed up in a big way.’

‘you really messed up, didn’t you?’

‘you’re just a junkie.’

‘they’re probably just sucking face somewhere.’

‘where’s the girl?’

‘nobody’s ever gonna find out about this.’

‘you’re gonna leave them alone.’

‘this place had nothing to do with it.’

‘i want you to slow down your breathing. take deep breaths.’

‘just breathe…’

‘stop talking.’

‘this is crazy!’

‘in case you forgot, we’re still fugitives.’

‘the bad men are still looking for us.’

‘she’s kind of a badass now, so…’

‘i’m just gonna go get some chocolate pudding.’

‘you need to leave.’

‘did he do this to you?!’

‘i’m not asking you, i’m telling you – get out of here!’

‘is that – is that gasoline?’

‘put the gun down.’

‘will someone please explain to me what the hell is going–?!’

‘this is crazy. this is crazy. this is crazy. this is crazy! this is crazy! this is crazy!’

‘are you insane?! it’s going to come back!’

‘come on, you son of a bitch!’

‘go to hell, you son of a bitch!’

‘it has to be dead… it has to be.’

‘i found the chocolate pudding!’

‘what’s “putting”?’

‘she can make you whatever you like.’

‘my point is, they’ll take care of you.’

‘this will charge your battery right up, i’m tleling you.’

‘they found us.’

‘she’s just drained…’

‘there’s more blood.’

‘she’s barely breathing.’

you want her, you have to kill us first!’

‘eat shit!’

‘you’re sick, but i’m going ot make you better.’

‘bad.’

‘the bad man’s gone.’

‘promise?’

‘is it dead?’

‘no more.’

‘goodbye.’

‘he’s not breathing–’

‘i love you more than anything in the world.’

‘i need you to wake up now.’

‘just breathe. breathe.’

‘you’re okay…’

‘you’re home.’

‘you’re safe.’

i made you a new mixtape.’

‘be careful with him.’

‘it’s dead.’

‘we made a new friend.’

‘she has superpowers.’

‘something is coming.s omething angry.’

‘whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, that’s not it, is it?’

‘it doesn’t make any sense!’

‘he farted.’

‘you’re like a little girl!’

‘i didn’t get you anything.’

‘can i open it?’

‘did you give it to him?’

‘no more snooping.’

‘it’s fun.’

[lectitas-blog]

i thought you said you didn’t read much? well, what is ‘much’?

[lectitas-blog]

        he watches with what can only be described as a smirk lifting the corner of his mouth, amusement settling there as he leans back in the chair. jess puts his book on the table, pages spread open, because this is way more interesting than anything vonnegut’s ever written. no, more than that; it’s verging on hilarious. luke’s losing it.  ❝ are you sure you’ve never been committed? it seems like those nice men in white coats could really be your friends, here. ❞

        jess’ hands raise in what might have been surrender, if only it weren’t so mocking.  ❝ i think the words you’re looking for are, ‘sorry for assuming things, jess.’ ‘cause you know what they say when you assume--- ❞ for once he’s not in the wrong, and he’s savouring that look on luke’s face as the realisation dawns for him. slowly. very slow on the uptake there, lucas.  ❝ did it ever occur to you that, hilarious as this has been, i might have better ways of spending my time? the school could do with a few less soccer balls, for example... ❞

                 ( @reversecap from )

[greelin]

arguing with tall people like “don’t make me come up there”

[meganmayday]

I understand that Jess Mariano is a fictional character, but I still hope he’s happy.

[carisiisms]

            “ oh god.. ” he wanted to hope that this place wasn’t that bad but from what he’s seen thus far, his hope is dwindling quickly. he could probably tolerate it but jess? there’s no way he’d last very long here. sonny would put money on that. “ done and done. so there’s no cool people here at all? ”

[lectitas-blog]

        he’s going mad, being here, but hey, it is what it is; his mom doesn’t want him around anymore, so whatever. he’ll put up with it, and then he’ll get the hell out of here. he shrugs, blowing smoke into the air as he thinks of her, of rory, just about the only tolerable person here. god, he hates this place.  ❝ nah. even my uncle’s certifiably insane...but he’s related to liz, so i don’t know what i was expecting. ❞

[timmgutterson]

        “ i’ll be sure t’ keep that in mind. “ he volleys back, dryly. this had nothing on harlan, really – but that isn’t something he’s going to get into. “ i’m assumin’ you’ve been ‘round for quite a while ‘n? “

[lectitas-blog]

        ❝ too long. don’t get taken in, man. ❞  there are enough tourists coming here that clearly stars hollow has something jess doesn’t see, but the whole small town charm thing wears off quickly. it wore off the second he got off that damn bus.  ❝ why’re you here, anyway? the worst crime is someone wearing white after labor day. and i was taught never to talk to the police without a parent or---nope, never to talk to the police. ❞

[lectitas-blog]

        yesterday’s absence isn’t commented on. in fact, nothing is commented on as he slides into the seat across from luther, not a single glance around him at the rest of the cafeteria --- there are all these rules, about who can sit where, and it’s a load of crap, if you ask him. a seat’s a seat, no freaking hierarchy should exist for it. impatience for the crowds around him itches beneath his skin, but he’s here now, and a guy’s gotta eat, right?  ❝ they spin us all these yarns about healthy eating, ❞ he says, alternating between his meal --- if it can be called that --- and turning the page of his book,  ❝ and yet they keep giving us this crap for lunch. they need to make up their hypocritical minds. ❞ but hey, that’s public school for you.

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❛ i don’t know what i’m doing with my life, but i know i’m doing it wrong ❜ ❛ i am so cute and bitter ❜ ❛ my life is one part ‘wait’ and another part ‘what’ ❜ ❛ my #1 talent is saying stupid things to people and immediately regretting it ❜ ❛ i love sleeping to avoid problems ❜ ❛ i hate myself a lot but i get offended when other people do ❜ ❛ i’m hungrier than the neopet i neglected for nine years ❜ ❛ hit me up if you wanna date a piece of shit ❜ ❛ we need some new and more powerful swears ❜ ❛ i get progressively uglier throughout the day ❜ ❛ i’m so miserable, but i laugh at everything ❜ ❛ i need something that is more than coffee, but less than cocaine ❜ ❛ just because you’re trash doesn’t mean you can’t do great things. it’s called garbage can, not garbage cannot. ❜ ❛ 90 out of 10 people agree that math is fucking lame ❜ ❛ if you think i’m ugly now, you should have seen me in 2009 ❜ ❛ 2010 me would literally be terrified of 2016 me and i love it ❜ ❛ i have a rare skin condition called close the fucking blinds ❜ ❛ hey babe, i made you this mixtape for valentines day. i don’t know many love songs, so it’s just uptown funk 18 times in a row. ❜ ❛ there are people who know me in real life who think i’m straight and that’s really funny to me ❜ ❛ i was cursed with expensive taste and a low budget ❜ ❛ yo dude i trusted you wtf the fuck? what the fuck?? what the fuck what the ❜ ❛ open flannel shirts and lingerie are the hottest thing and nobody can convince me otherwise ❜ ❛ i’m the weird dad, wine mom, vodka aunt, and gay emo cousin all in one person ❜ ❛ that awful moment when you wake up ❜ ❛ damn haha i’m going to have to deal with that sooner or later ❜ ❛ are we gonna fucking hold hands tonight or what bitch ❜ ❛ people our age have children what the hell i am a children ❜ ❛ i don’t like your clothes. take them off. ❜ ❛ why am i only motivated to sort my life out at 4 am? ❜ ❛ after i die, i’ll probably still complain ❜ ❛ people are so petty and then here i am, me, an angel ❜ ❛ if i don’t insult you daily, it means i don’t like you ❜ ❛ do something with your life that would make a 1950s straight white man angry ❜ ❛ i need to get laid… to rest. put me in a coffin. let my soul ascend. ❜ ❛ i’m trying to be a better person, but some people are testing me ❜ ❛ i’m overstressed and underfucked ❜ ❛ i can’t wait to be a piece of shit with a bachelors degree ❜ ❛ my emo phase never went away, it just aged like fine wine ❜ ❛ my whole life consists of wondering whether or not to make the bitchy comment ❜ ❛ i don’t have time for people who don’t believe in aliens ❜ ❛ the lack of cuddling i am experiencing right now is upsetting ❜ ❛ why do good concert tickets happen to bad people ❜ ❛ i can’t play hard to get i’m already hard to want ❜ ❛ i’m still pissed off about growing up ❜ ❛ if you listen carefully, you can hear me whisper ‘shut the fuck up’ at least once every five minutes ❜ ❛ when i die i want my heart donated to NASA so they can finally see what a black hole looks like up close ❜ ❛ single and ready to take a 20 hour nap ❜ ❛ write ‘nothing is set in stone’ on my grave as both a witty joke and a subtle warning that i will be back ❜ ❛ how do people even put up with me like i can’t even put up with me ❜ ❛ the opening riff to mr. brightside could literally raise me from the dead ❜ ❛ stale cinnamon roll, been in this world too long, too cynical  ❜ ❛ sorry, i’m poor. i can’t afford to pay attention ❜ ❛ aziz ansari’s voice in the back of my head faintly telling me to treat myself is going to be my downfall ❜ ❛ is it too late to wrap myself up like a baby and drop myself off on a billionaire’s doorstep? ❜ ❛ my neutral expression makes me look like i’m always in a bad mood which is convenient because it’s usually true ❜ ❛ i never run voluntarily so if you ever see me running you should start running too because something is coming ❜

[lectitas-blog]

         ❝ uh, no, you don’t wanna read that one. ❞ clearly, marketing isn’t jess’ forte, but he’s struck with first time author nerves, coiling his stomach into knots that won’t straighten out. it’s stupid, he knows that, he knows that he’s gotta put himself out there...but writing something people will read? that’s vulnerability, and jess is too used to hiding that behind walls of sarcasm so high even he can’t knock them down again. a guy can only get hurt so many times, you know---and luke hasn’t read it yet. rory hasn’t read it yet. it’s too new. he clears his throat, moving in front of the subsect’s display, a visible barrier.  ❝ i hear the author’s, like, a total douchebag. ❞

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[carisiisms]

                “ what kinda festivals? ” sonny imagined that they wouldn’t be very fun. well past the LAME border, easily. he laughed, “ so they probably think i’m onna’ your fellow gang members, huh? we should get some matching leather jackets ‘n really freak ‘em out. ” he nudged his friend with his elbow.

[lectitas-blog]

         ❝ think lame suburbian movies, and multiply it. ❞ jess has been here barely any time at all, and he can already sense the way the pageantry is going to itch beneath his skin, so opposed to everything he is---everything he likes. jess does not fit here, round peg in a town full of square holes. it makes him want to wreak havoc on their white picket fence lives.  ❝ yup. we need a handshake. and to make trouble. ❞

[lectitas-blog]

jess hearteyes mariano

[carisiisms]

            “ fruits? jesus.. ” he trailed off and glanced around, noticing that most everyone was staring at them and not in a good way. “ they always stare like this? ” the two of them stuck out like a sore thumb here and now he was understanding how jess said he wasn’t very well received here. he supposed he’d be lumped into that category – guilty by association. oh well. he wouldn’t have it any other way, honestly.

[lectitas-blog]

         ❝ and there’s a different festival every single month. it’s never ending. ❞ at least luke doesn’t go in for that sort of thing --- the town patriotism, or whatever kind of insanity it can be classed as, having passed him by despite having grown up here. there’s not much jess is grateful for, right now, outsider that he is, missing his city, his friends, but at least luke will tell that stupid taylor guy to shut the hell up. that’s something? jess likes seeing them argue.  ❝ oh, yeah, they all hate me. they probably think i’ve single-handedly brought gang violence to stars hollow. ❞

[carisiisms]

             sonny had a feeling that this place would be both amusing and frightening at the same time – not a bad mixture for an impromptu getaway to visit his friend. “ copy that. ” he laughed and pulled out his pack from his back pocket and offered him one. “ so this is it? literally? ” he gestured around the town square. 

[lectitas-blog]

         ❝ in all its glory. ❞ it sure is different from new york, but hey, what did he expect? it wasn’t like this was a choice, but here he is anyway --- jess isn’t so sure that getting used to it is gonna happen any time soon, and he’s making no effort to fit in to the small town cult, but what can he do? he takes the cigarette with a nod, lighting it with his own lighter, flipping it between his fingers before it’s back in his pocket.  ❝ everything else is basically another street named after a freaking fruit. the jokes write themselves. ❞

[lectitas-blog]

i don’t know if anyone’s interested, but my url is (hopefully) latin for you read often or you read eagerly. which summarises jess anyway, but also just made me think of:

rory: i thought you said you didn’t read much? jess: well, what is ‘much’?

[carisiisms]

            sonny got off of the bus and seemed to walk right into a whole new world. don’t get him wrong, he knew that this was a small town but he didn’t anticipate it being THIS SMALL. he put a cigarette between his lips and lit it up as he walked towards the gazebo where he was supposed to meet jess. “ the fuck kinda’ place is this? are ya livin’ in a CULT town now? ”

@lectitas

[lectitas-blog]

        in a move that should surprise nobody, jess has his nose firmly in a book, his presence in the gazebo making everyone else give it a wide berth --- thank god. he guesses becoming the town pariah in zero-point-two seconds flat has its perks. the intrusion is a relief, though, not a bother, and jess looks up, shoulders shrugging. ❝ if i start drinking the kool-aid, you have my permission to shoot me in the head. ❞ he gets to his feet, book tucked into his back pocket as he nods at sonny’s cigarette.  ❝ you got a spare? ❞

[lectitas-blog]

         ❝ there are a lot of crazies in this town, i figured you’d just drunk the water, same as the last lot. no accounting for taste. ❞

                  ( @timmgutterson cont. )