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Been cooking up an Anon/Phainon -> Myphai treat for the Problematic Big Bang! If Phainon's awful self-esteem and terrible coping methods are up your alley, this fic probably will be too :3

My partner @boys-wonder is providing beautiful art to accompany. See my last reblog for a preview!

The fic should be coming by the end of the month!

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don't tell me it's wrong

Chapters: 1/1, 12.9k words Fandom: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Multiple! Check author's note on AO3 for details. Relationships: Robin/Sunday Additional Tags: Canon Divergence, Character Study, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Developing Relationship, Sibling Incest, Obsession, Guilt, Shame, Mind Meld, Love Confessions, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Wing Grooming, Temporary Changes to Gender or Sex, Sunday is Down Bad 🔞 Additional sexual tags on AO3 for space's sake - and there is a lot of sexual content in this fic.

Robin takes his hand, squeezing it tight as she graces him with a radiant smile, her wings fluttering.

Sunday's heart flutters too, stomach lurching until he feels sick with it. Xipe could descend in all of THEIR divine radiance and smite him for this deviancy, and it would not change a thing. He could not possibly be more smitten than he is in this moment.

Sunday's fixation on Robin inspires a small act of defiance that changes the arc of Penacony's future—and their relationship.

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all the days of our delights are poison in my veins

Chapters: 1/1 , 13.7k words Fandom: Honkai: Star Rail Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence Relationships: Mydei/Phainon, Past Hephaestion/Mydei Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Temporary Character Death, Consensual But Not Safe Or Sane, Character Study, Heavy Angst, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Self-Esteem Issues, Anger, Mental Breakdown, Suicidal Thoughts, Blood and Injury, Stabbing, Choking, Biting, Feral Behavior, Communication, Honesty, Trust, Devotion, Top/Bottom Versatile | Switch Mydei/Phainon, Light Dom/sub, Subspace, Anal Fingering, Sexual Overstimulation, Anal Fisting, Praise Kink, Wet & Messy, Watersports, Pissgasm, Anal Sex, Creampie, Come Marking, Hopeful Ending

Mydei’s mouth unexpectedly hardens as he rests his back against the throne, glaring up at Phainon and gesturing loosely at what—as far as Phainon can tell—is all of him.

“This—this softness of yours? It’s worrisome. If something happens to me—if I’m corrupted, if your precious prophecy says you must go through me for the sake of Era Nova—will you be able to fulfill your promise? Or will you be too besotted to do what you must?”

Phainon’s heart sinks almost as fast as his dick does. He doesn’t think he’s lost an erection this quickly in his life.

He closes his eyes, swallowing his misery as he takes a deep breath against the rising tide of panic in his chest. An image of that-which-was-once-Piso surfaces, his flesh hardening and cracking and darkening into a rotting orange-black bloom. A manipulative force in the body of his childhood friend, wheedling to get closer, until Phainon pierced him through the chest and ended his suffering.

Why, Phainon? Aren’t we the best of friends?

His eyes snap back open as he grips Mydei’s bicep too roughly, focusing firmly on Mydei’s frowning face in an effort to shake the image from his head. He scans Mydei’s perfect body, every bit of flesh that’s on display: still human, in every way that counts—or divine, as the case may be.

“I—” Phainon’s voice cracks, and he takes another deep breath. “I can do it, Mydei. I promised.”

Mydei retrieves a dagger from beside the throne, its blade long and wickedly sharp. He places the hilt in Phainon’s hand, closing his fingers around it.

“Then prove it. I challenge you to kill me three times, in whatever way you’d like. If you succeed, I will never bring this up again until it must happen in truth.”

Nausea roils in Phainon’s stomach and he swallows hard, praying his lunch will stay down.

He’s never failed to meet a challenge Mydei issued before. Has always risen to them gladly. Eagerly, even.

This is an exception. He is not as prepared for it as he’d thought, despite spiraling over the possibility so many times. Worry, it seems, does not substitute for ability to perform under pressure.

(AKA Phainon's Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day that he somehow walks away from in better shape than when he started.)

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the long goodbye

Chapters: 1/1 , 15.6k words Fandom: Honkai: Star Rail Rating: Explicit Warnings: None Relationships: Mydei/Phainon Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Extended Scene, Established Relationship, Marriage Proposal, Wedding Night, Devotion, Ear Piercings, Top/Bottom Versatile | Switch Mydei/Phainon, Unsafe Sex, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Creampie, Clothed Sex, Wall Sex, Poetry, Neck Kissing, Biting, Teasing, Choking, Rough Sex, Bath Sex, Marking, Begging, Mild Blood, Masochism, Caretaking, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Tenderness, Breeding Kink, Dirty Talk, Feminization, Lactation Kink Nipple Play, Marathon Sex, Scent Kink Sexual Overstimulation Under-negotiated Kink, Cooking, Sharing Clothes, Goodbyes, Light Angst

Mydei keeps the signet ring and marries Phainon.

He grants him one extra night together before leaving Okhema, a celebration of their marriage—and from the moment he's carried past the threshold of Phainon's modest home to the moment they say goodbye, he commits every bit of him to memory, a bastion to shield him from the inevitable corruption of the Black Tide.

Even on the brink of parting, as the planet flirts with destruction, Mydei will not—cannot—deny Phainon a proper wedding night.

Part 4 of death in your embrace but can be read standalone.

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my heart a fortress, overrun

Chapters: 1/1, 6.8k words Fandom: Honkai: Star Rail Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Mydei/Phainon, Background Hephaestion/Mydei Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Love Confessions, First Time, Switching, Anal Fingering, Riding, Anal Sex, Creampie, Bathing/Washing, Light Angst, Background Relationships

Mydei had once thought Hephaestion was his other half, finding the sort of completion in his companionship that the poets sing of. When he’d lost him, it was a wound deeper than any a weapon has landed on him. He’d closed himself off, drawing inward and tending only to the needs of his people, placing them above all else—for what could he desire for himself, now that Hephaestion was gone?

And then came Phainon, shining and bright-dark and hiding his own heartaches, infuriating and beautiful, to teach him that souls do not always divide into meticulously portioned halves. They crack into uneven, messy portions with boundaries that bleed into each other, shifting and blurring but never consuming. Mydei misses Hephaestion no less for Phainon’s presence, but he is certain that Hephaestion would want him to seek whatever solace he can in a world that is falling apart, and to offer it in turn.

Part 2 of death in your embrace / Mydei's POV of elysium in your arms

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To Teyvat, With Love

Chapters: 7/7, 2.4k words Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Baizhu, Background/Mentioned Others Additional Tags: Epistolary

With curiosity that runs so deep, it is no wonder that Baizhu longs to travel. But his health is—well, it is what it is, and he has patients at home that he can't neglect.

Instead of traveling, he writes.

(aka the "if Hoyoverse won't connect Baizhu to other characters I'll do it myself" fic)

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elysium in your arms

Chapters: 1/1, 4.8k Fandom: Honkai: Star Rail Rating: Explicit Warnings: None Relationships: Mydei/Phainon Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Anxiety, Vulnerability, Love Confessions, First Time, Switching, Riding, Anal Sex, Creampie, Bathing/Washing, Angst

Mydei growls his name like a curse. “Are you dense? Have you ever seen me take another lover despite the legions that throw themselves at me in the marketplace? Do you think I would be beneath you if I didn’t—”

Phainon cuts him off with a kiss.

If he doesn’t let Mydei say it, they don’t have to figure out what to do about it. He doesn’t have to pretend that there is an end for them in this universe that doesn’t end in heartache. They can simply continue to be two evenly matched soldiers, seeking comfort in each other’s bodies on this lonely night-that-is-not.

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What if Phainon had to wait a few days between retrieving the coreflame and undergoing the trial and got really in his head about it?

What if he crawled into Mydei's window to reassure himself his nightmares weren't real?

What if Mydei applied just the right amount of pressure in just the right places to make him crack and spill all his secrets?

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Love as Devotion

Chapters: 1/1, 2.9k words Fandom: Genshin Impact Rating: Teen Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Baizhu & Changsheng Additional Tags: Character Study, Developing Friendships, Devotion, References to Illness

Changsheng levels her gaze on him. disapprovingly. “You rarely curse, and when you do it’s almost always at the gods. Aren’t you afraid they’ll strike you down one day?”

Baizhu laughs derisively. “And why should I be? If they in their ‘divine wisdom’ don’t see fit to pay attention to the suffering of children, what makes you think they’ll be paying any more attention to the rantings of a pharmacist?”

“Your funeral. And mine, I suppose, but who’s keeping track?”

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A short character study on Baizhu's fears and relationship with Changsheng, and their evolution over the course of a lifetime. Written for the Transcending Transience Baizhu zine.