Tag! Say ten things about yourself then send this to ten of your favorite followers! :)
1. I’m starting to notice little changes in my body that show signs of aging, like unsteady hands and deteriorating eyesight, and it’s not fun. I mean, it’s definitely not enough to worry about right now, but just the fact that it’s happening even in the slightest is bumming me out.
2. I have trouble communicating with people, I guess. I don’t show enough emotion. I’m not exactly sure why I do it, but I’ve heard it from all my girlfriends, both current and previous. I’m apparently too rational and it bothers them, sometimes a lot. It gives me a weird feeling, because my rationality convinces me that I’m doing right, but when I’m told it’s not what I should be doing, I’m not sure what to think, whether my understanding is flawed or the understanding of the person criticizing me is flawed.
3. I’m too used to going day by day with little to no money. It sucks because I’m not feeling compelled to do more about it. Like, I have a job, but at minimum wage there are probably plenty of jobs I could get that would pay more and be closer to what I enjoy doing. I need to stop being content with so little. I should convince myself that I deserve the best, and do something about getting it.
4. I’ve discovered that a thing that infuriates me is when someone attempts to convince me to do something by saying “be a man.” I don’t even want to get into this. Just don’t do it to me.
5. I’m too content with being on my own. I mean, I enjoy company a lot, but I don’t take on solitude with a bitter demeanor. It’s pretty easy for me to occupy my full attention on little tasks that don’t require much thought, like cleaning my room or playing guitar, or even too much thought, like building a Magic deck or editing a video.
6. I sleep with, I guess, five pillows total. I think it helps me sleep easier to have a pillow to hug, and one on each side of me. I don’t sleep with a pillow on my head anymore, though. I got used to doing that because I had a turtle in my room for a summer and his heat lamp and running water would keep me up at night unless I had a pillow on my head to block out the sound and light. I’m good now, though.
7. I think I look weird, which is why I make stupid faces in a lot of photos. I’m not sure exactly why I think this. I mean, I know I’m not bad looking, I just don’t think I’m too good looking. I have odd features. Maybe it’s just that everyone’s critical of themselves, though, cuz who else would see all their own flaws more than themselves.
8. I kind of have a phobia of smelling bad. Like, I’m not sure how serious it is, but if someone were to tell me I smell bad, I’d feel offended and I’m not sure why. I put plenty of effort into smelling nice, and I’m not even sure why I worry about it because it hasn’t happened yet. Maybe it’s because there are people I’ve thought naturally smelled bad, and I’d just be really upset if I were to find out I came off as that way.
9. I’m a total mama’s boy, and I even try to get my friends’ moms to like me. Same thing with the smelling bad thing; if I were to find out that someone’s mom doesn’t like me, I … I wouldn’t know how to react. I’d probably take it personally and be upset for the rest of the day.
10. Iiiiiiiiiii need to hurry up and get started on going to a gym. The problem is that my body isn’t bad, but then again it’s not great either, and I feel like I have a lot of potential to have an amazing body. There’s just no immediate reason that jumps at me to make me feel compelled to make that change. I just know that on the surface my body looks okay, but there’s probably a lot going wrong on the inside that’ll slow me down later on. So yeah, I oughta exercise.Thank you for askingggg. I hope you don’t mind my lame “soul-searchy and weird” thoughts.