yk, considering the fact that i can never find fanfiction that works for me, i have no idea why i ever thought ai could provide something for me. if human-made works don't ever cut it, why would a shitty amalgamation of works from a system that clearly doesn't even understand the words it's spitting out, let alone the complexities of character, when real people can't seem to grasp those intricacies half the damn time to begin with?
i may be wayy too selective for fanfic and too antisocial (not to mention burnt out– and also selective tbh) for roleplay, but i can't believe i thought for even a second ai could provide a replacement
much much better off going through the struggle of figuring out shifting and just getting there to experience exactly what i'm looking for or even just reading exactly the fanfictions i want to read in my wr. it's frustrating, i get desperate, but i need to deal with that instead of choosing to turn it all away with bs. i won't get anywhere like this!!
i won't lie and say it's easy for me because i have stumbled back into trying again with ai from time to time in desperation, but primus, i am so over it. even with the ethical concerns aside, it just pisses me off. all of it. -10/10 NOT worth the addiction, will be resisting compulsive urges going forward
better to have breakdowns without ai than resorting to using it to avoid sitting with thoughts and feelings like a pussy
i can and will do better, and i will shift
and NOT with the use of ai
