#ailefroide

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Yesterday I forced myself to get out of the house and take a short walk. The sunset lights melted with snow was quite magical and it made me feel better after two days in my bed binge watching Altered Carbon and cuddling with my cat.

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today was such a lovely day 🤍

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Tiny crimps and try hard face. Today was a good day 💜

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Yesterday was quite extraordinary.

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It seems a lifetime ago but i remember that on the day we went up there i had a breakthrough about my love patterns and I decided to take back my magic, to honor myself and stop making myself small to please men. I decided to live life a bit more. I went to that crazy Halloween party a week later and met N there.

And I know I'm a bit too much about him at the moment and I'm probably over my head but I also know it might not last. I know that we might end as suddenly as we begun. But I'm enjoying it and I know, I know deep within my bones that I deserve this. I deserve everything he's giving me. I deserve all the joy and and the happiness and I'm not letting this go because "we're going too fast" or "I should act a bit more detached". I'm not playing games anymore. We have something honest and beautiful and I intend to enjoy it until the last minute. And never settle for any less.

I deserve every piece of it.

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Morning of silver & gold.

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Yesterday's multi pitch route with C was exactly what we needed. Great rock, technical and powerful moves, perfect weather, and a hell of a view as usual. So grateful.