We reconnected with one of our friends we had a falling out with due to his partner cutting contact.
It felt great to actually be honest and open with him. We learned that his partner basically was keeping us from getting closer due to her insecurities and god-complex (her own words) and that we were basically both under her thumb.
I still did things wrong that led to the fracturing of the relationship, but it feels good to not have to completely blame myself and to understand that the situation we were in lead me to those self destructive actions.
It’s been almost a year since we’ve parted. He seems so much healthier and happier now that he’s broken up with her. He said the same about me, that I seem more open and less scared.
It happens on the day I graduated from high school too. Our friendship split off right before senior year started, and is rebuilt right after it ends. It feels nice, like a full circle moment.
I don’t want to say I have closure—nothing’s ending, we’re going to continue being friends, it seems—but I feel as though a huge weight has been lifted. The breakup was partially specifically my fault, after all, so it feels good to be able to front without any guilt. We’re repairing things.
It’s still a bit uncomfortable and nerve-wracking, but I think this rekindling of our friendship is going to be a good thing. I’m actually happy.
-Akechi💼