the way ilya takes a deep breath and mouths the word “okay” as he’s bracing himself to face shane because he doesn’t know what’s waiting for him on the other side of that conversation. like maybe shane is there with rose, maybe they’re getting married, maybe shane has left ilya behind for good, and obviously ilya tries not to look too nervous about the small detail that is his heart potentially crumbling down to dust and ashes, but of course you can still feel it and you still know. like okay indeed, murder me ig











