#alienated blogging

[flockofdoves]

thinking about michael and raúl falling in love and trauma bonding and also art forgery

my story ideas are genius why can’t i fucking write or draw anymore

[kjaroskura]

the shading on this is kinda lazy but i don’t draw digital stuff of raúl enough

[kjaroskura]

my original characters raúl and michael but older than i usually draw them!

haven’t been drawing enough recently so i fixed up this line art from a while back to get back into things

[flockofdoves]

this looks bad and both of them look off model but i just wanted to do a practice comic with these two...

raúl at the point this takes place is starting to realize he likes michael and michael probably likes him back but also hes too stressed to really deal with that beyond enjoying doing stuff like this. meanwhile michael is crushing really hard on raúl but has resigned himself to thinking hes straight and it’ll never be reciprocated rip

[flockofdoves]

idk how to draw backgrounds that dont look shitty (is it the line width variation?? the shakiness?? the lack of color palette? idk!) but i tried to practice by designing michaels room...

i know its weird to have political awareness posters on your wall but since hes a part of yell (act up’s kid division) i imagine he likes keeping extras and he has a very one track mind so it doesnt seem weird to him to hang them up. also idk much about early queercore but i love the dicks poster lol

[flockofdoves]

mugwort gave me some fcking weird dreams last night and these two i realized afterwards personality wise are basically micah and isaac except in the eighties with a different story but i wanna use this dream to make a comic or something

[kjaroskura]

new ocs that i got the inspiration for in a dream last night... their names are raul and michael they live in 1989 new york and after watching the cult movie communion michael convinces raul (who likes writing goosebumps-esque stories) to create their own alien abduction hoax and make money off of that instead of a part-time job. i really wanna make a comic about them now

[flockofdoves]

looking in my oc tags and stressing myself out because actually so much information ive shared about michael and raúl in there really isnt even accurate anymore. like i still havent and am not sure when ill ever get around to actually getting into more detailed writing and plotting if ever at this point but god as ive tried to flesh them out behind the kinda surface level imitation of older characters from a less in depth story idea i created when i was younger and also just didnt really understand people enough to make characters much beyond surface level dynamics and traits i enjoyed (funnily enough though in my earliest attempts at plotting out alienated i actually took out some of the conflict of the plot and development of characters that even my initial dream had?? and im only just realizing i think i want to reincorporate that again lol) and am also researching stuff and the research effecting the shape of the story theres just so much that looking at in my old posts just i do not think is accurate anymore. i hope i can actually share this story with people one day and when i do ill just have to be like. please pay no mind to my first 3 years of posting about them lol. but it does make me kinda sad because it is fun to post about them to share with others when i know even if i was dedicated a finished product is nowhere near but even if people were paying attention they just wouldnt have a grasp on them anymore with what has or hasnt changed to enjoy them as they are now in development :(