#alim

[deletingmyself]

(by Alim)| Jakarta, Indonesia

[zoe-oneesama]

Sweeping up the rest of the extras. I really did every possible character in Season 1, even that one weird-hypnotist!

Main Cast Class Agreste Employees Adults 1 Grande Paris Friends and Employees Cesaires and KIDZ+

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[darul-hadis]

[unexpressedthoughtsanddesires]

My plea

Please— don’t close the door completely.

Leave it open an inch, a crack of light, enough for me to kneel beside it and still believe you might return.

I know what this is to you.

An arrangement. An hour. A body passing briefly through another body before night folds back over everything.

But to me— God—

to me it is survival.

Your visits are the only bright pins holding my life together.

An hour every few months— do you understand how little that is? How enormous?

I live off those hours like famine people live off crumbs.

The memory of your hand on my neck lasts longer than entire seasons.

So yes, I will take whatever you are willing to give.

The unfinished kisses. The distracted tenderness. The fragments.

I have trained my heart to survive on fractions of you.

And perhaps that is shameful.

Perhaps a person should have more dignity than this begging.

But loneliness is a strange country. It lowers the body to the ground. It teaches you to worship things that barely stay.

Please don’t leave entirely.

I am trying to ask gently, without frightening you with the full scale of my need.

Because I know you do not love me the way I love you. I know your freedom matters more to you than being held too tightly by someone aching.

Still—

if there is even a small room in your life where I may continue existing, quietly, carefully, without ruining everything—

let me stay there.

Even if I must stand at the edges of your attention like a man waiting outside a lit house in winter.

I can endure almost anything except the finality of losing you completely.

[sacredwhores]

Heorhiy Tasin - Alim (1926)

[sozince]

Kalbini Allah'a bırakan, sükunete erişir

ama kalbini insanlara bırakan hep sıkıntılı, hep kaygılıdır..

Yahya bin Muaz

[ilmiyyat1453]

• Âlimlerle oturanın, edebi artar,

• Kadınlarla oturanın, şehveti artar,

• Zenginlerle oturanın, kalbi sertleşir,

• Çocuklarla oturanın, neşesi artar,

• Âsîlerle oturanın, umursamazlığı artar,

• Sâlihlerle oturanın, takvâsı artar,

• Fakîhlerle oturanın, kıymeti artar.

Rasûlullah (aleyhisselâtu vesselâm buyurdu: "Kişi, arkadaşının dini üzeredir. Kiminle dostluk yaptığınıza dikkat edin" (Ebû Dâvûd)

[lllkatilcivciv]

Son 3 yıl benim ömrümden 10 yıl aldı.