I ended a relationship I had for 4 years recently. Few days ago. Today I helped someone jack off. and like. it's the most free I've felt in such a long time for some reason.
I used to be busy with like 3 or 4 people before a few years back. but as the relationship with one of them developed they asked for me to remain monogamous and so I compromised. The relationship went on for 3 more years until this month. They had romantic feelings for me and wanted a more romantic style relationship while I did not and we kept trying to compromise. In the end I couldn't pretend anymore and admitted I could never meet their needs.
But now that I'm out of it I don't need to me monogamous anymore. And one of the friends I used to get busy with online, I talk to still. And she did stuff and talked about it and I helped her through it. By the end I got really emotional and I felt so oddly free. I felt like a tiger trapped in a human house suddenly get released into an enclosure made just for it. Plants and pool and everything else I need to meet my natural behaviours and welfare needs. It just felt so good even if I didn't do anything with myself while assisting my friend. And I get to just. Remain friends ? With her ? I have no obligation to Only stay with her. Or hide my weird nonromantic love for a fictional character. I don't need to fulfill any other needs for her or I'm expected to marry or do pda with her. And realise and feeling all of that I just. I feel so free. I feel so good. I feel closer to myself.
This is what I need and want. I want to please people and myself sexually and remain friends despite being sweet in that way. And that's entirely fine and acceptable. I'm allowed to do that now. I always was. I was just... trapped because we both refused to acknowledge I can't change. And I can't provide romance to anyone. I just feel so free and so thankful. I love life.
I love being alloaro and I will never let anyone else undermine or disrespect my identity again. I won't do it myself either. I'm a whore and I'm damn proud of it. I know my fictional wife would be happy for me too. Fuck yeah. I love life. I love sex. Happy Pride Month and never let any form of love prevent you from being yourself.












