This is something I struggle with daily. I've spent my entire life believing that I am unloveable & unworthy of happiness. So when something good happens, I immediately wonder how long it's going to last. Sometimes I do everything I can to see if I'm right. I push and push until that happiness is taken away. But now I've had enough. I want to believe that I deserve to be loved & adored. I want to believe that I deserve to be happy. I want to believe that good things are meant to happen to me. It's hard to change your mindset when you've believed something else for so long. Now I'm committed to doing whatever I can to shift my mindset. Sometimes it's really hard and I go back to my survival mode of pushing that happiness away to protect myself from heartbreak. But I've been through enough sadness, pain, and heartbreak. It's time to start believing that I deserve happiness just like everyone else...because I do. #realtalk #allthetruthIcantell #livingwithmentalillness #claiminghappiness