Allurement: Ambivalence
Warning- Smut
As soon as she was out of her slumber, (Y/N) realised that Namjoon was missing. It was often that he did not like to disturb her sleep and by the time she woke up, he would be sitting on the armchair, being fed with the daily news headlines on his tablet and his coffee in front of him. But he was missing entirely, and it was still early.
She had barely removed herself from the bed when she heard his hurried footsteps, she could know it was him by just the way he climbed. The door opened, revealing Namjoon, and to her surprise, he was dressed as if he had been out.
“Where were you?”
“Missed me?” the annoying smirk did nothing but sour up her morning.
“You wish.” huffing, she turned to settle the bedding, only to him attach himself to her.
“It has been a while.” Namjoon planted a kiss on her neck before turning her face and locking his lips with hers.
“We’re always together, Namjoon. Not like I can go anywhere without your permission.”
His hold tightened on her at her jibe “Trust me, Darling, I have been exceptionally lenient with you, the only woman I love.”
“And yet you go marry someone else,” she stated matter-of-factly and tried to step away, as much as cosy she felt with him, she would rather not have her mood sunken further.
“I did what I needed to do to keep my position.”
“Exactly.”
“Don’t be naive (Y/N), one needs to be powerful to ensure his happiness.” his words almost made her laugh.
She finally turned to him, standing flushed against him
“And are you happy, Namjoon? You lead a double life and your marriage is far from normal and your affair is one-sided.”
“Stop.” the warning was clear, but she was not ready to stop yet. She would not until she showed him the mirror.
“Why? Does the truth hurt? Power could not bring you the peace of mind you once had when we were…” she trailed off, feeling her throat closing in.
“We are still together. And my power allows me so many liberties, Love, over that doctor, over Park Jimin.”
(Y/N)’s heart fell at his words. No, not another innocent man, and certainly not her only friend.
“You would not…”
“Ah, Love, I thought you know me enough by now. You know what I am capable of - do not tempt me.”
She kept silent, remembering the time Sejun had been framed for the crime the poor man had never committed. He grasped her nape and pulled her into a melting kiss. His kisses were always passionate, always expressive- they seemed more honest than him, or perhaps were far more deceptive- (Y/N) could not decide. His lips were tantalizing, his hand over her hips suggestive. His hold over her tightened with his deepening kiss before she felt him sliding the thin nightgown off her shoulder.
**Smut**
In no time, her breast was exposed for him to admire “You are so lovely.” he whispered to her when he had pulled away from her lips for a brief moment before he dove right in with fervour. His thumb brushed over her exposed and pebbled bud before he slid off the gown completely.
(Y/N) felt it softly hitting the floor and polling around her legs with her eyes tightly shut and mind hazy. Namjoon’s arm wrapped around her bare waist as he began to kiss down her neck. It was dizzying, she had grown used to his touch but it remained intense, passionate- dizzyingly passionate.
She could still feel the fabric of his shirt pressed to her, but not for long. Namjoon was quick to discard his garments as well before guiding her back to the ruffled bed. The softness and warmth felt welcoming as his hands rubbed her naked curves.
“You still feel the same- when I got to touch you for the first time,” he mumbled as his lips glided across her breasts.
His fingers were quick to press against her clothed sex, the silk material rubbed deliciously against her damp opening as his fingers pressed through it and moved in patterns.
“But you know how I felt the first time I saw you? The first time ever? My world stopped- I did not know how and why- but life ceased all of a sudden, thoughts vanished, I was left stagnant. And…I could see only you.”
His confession was followed by a ravishing kiss and his fingers pressing firmer against her heat, making her shudder in anticipation.
“We are…” she trailed off, the pleasure was turning overwhelming “We are not—”
She could barely speak through his consuming kisses, each one more passionate, longer, deeper than the last.
“I cannot…I can never trust you, Namjoon, I can never trust you again.” she managed to whisper out, already feeling the bitterness as the pleasure gripped her firmer.
“I adore you, Jagi…” his lips soon attached to the column of her neck as he slipped the undergarment off her.
His fingers ran up to her bare slit, making her shiver. Chuckling in response, his thumb drew circles on her opening, covering itself with her essence in the process. It was dizzying, as always, but she had noticed a few things- he had been unusually gentle with her in recent times. And she had begun to notice the change ever since he had declared her married to him.
It felt good, not that he had hurt her physically before, but the last time he had been even remotely rough was when he had barged into the office and took her right ob the desk.
The roughness was delicious, more so with him being ticked off and desperate. But this newfound gentleness, the delicacy, it all felt euphoric. His touches reminded her of the Namjoon she had once known. Until the mask melted away. The gentleness felt to be more of a lover’s than a man dipped in obsession and drunk in power.
Her reverie was broken by his lips sliding over hers as he slid two fingers into her core, making her back arch. Every time his lips parted from hers, a confession of his love fell from his lips. They were tender and careful- low, whispers filled with knowing smiles. He knew the effect he had on her and was proud.
Bu t his fingers did not stay there for too long, soon, his shaft replaced them and her eyes rolled back when she dipped into the slow and intense pleasure. He was far from rough or haste, he took his time in making love to her.
And in that bliss, everything else was momentarily forgotten, she let his love flow through and for once, considered letting her guards down.
**Smut End**
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Namjoon had to make a trip somewhere with Yoongi. The ‘somewhere’ remained concealed from (Y/N) and she was left to her own devices in her office. Her assistant Hana had accompanied her to the office canteen for lunch. It was a pleasant change of company. Hana was a hardworking girl, fresh out of college and reminded (Y/N) so much of her own college-girl days.
“So, Hana, you have anything in mind after this internship?”
“Not really, Ma’am, I was considering going for Marketing, I had applied for an internship under the marketing department of the company, but was not selected there. But then I was offered the position of the Secretary’s assistant by the management.”
“Yes, I have heard of it. You have done other internships before, right?”
“Yes, Ma’am, Brewings.”
“Lee Hyungwoo’s company?” she perked up at the mention of Mr Lee’s company.
“Yes, but it is owned by his Aunt, she never married and Mr Lee became her heir.”
“Oh, right. Lee Dambi. Had met her once. You ever encountered her?”
“No, Ma’am.”
“And Mr Lee?”
Hana visibly stiffened at the question, but (Y/N) decided against making a comment. “Not really.”
(Y/N) nodded and decided to change the discourse into a lighter one.
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It was shortly after lunch when she was surprised by Jimin’s visit. She had missed him, but it was all too unsafe for him to be there with her. There were eyes everywhere.
“Jimin! What are you doing here?”
“Do not panic, I was required to submit a few files. Thought it would be a good chance to see you.” he smiled faintly “I missed my friend.”
He needed to say no more, (Y/N) jumped up from her seat and rushed to him for a warm hug. She had missed him too. But after Min Yoongi’s warning, she knew that it would be better for him to stay away from her for a while.
She felt him sigh as he wrapped his arms around her “How have you been? You need more of those?”
She pulled away from the hug and shook her head. She had enough pills for the time being. “I am okay, what about you?”
“I was tasked to keep an eye on Choi Wonshik. It is not easy, but that’s okay, I keep getting bits about your life here.”
“We should not be speaking much here.” she pointed out.
“No, this is the safest place. It’s Namjoon’s office. And since he is not here…” he trailed off and looked around for prying eyes around the floor before turning back to her “Listen, and listen carefully. I have been in contact with Doctor Sejun.”
“Sejun? H-how is he?”
“Better than we had expected. See, I have a plan.”
“What plan?”(Y/N) frowned at that.
“To get you out of here silly, what else? I am considering applying for a transfer. Most people would not doubt me. I can arrange an escape for both of you. If Sejun is left behind, he is going to be the first suspect and Namjoon will have him killed.”
“I can’t…I can’t escape he literally has a chip implanted with me.”
“And that can be deactivated. It is an AI system, machines can be misleading. Leave that to me.” he let out a shaky breath and held her shoulders. “I will arrange to send you somewhere far away from this country, but nearer to wherever I would be posted. You will be free, (Y/N), you can live the way you want, no one would disturb you, us three.”
“Do not underestimate Min Yoongi and Kim Namjoon, Jimin, i-if they find out they will not spare you, they—”
“If they find out, I have worked with them for years, I know how they work, how their minds work (Y/N), I will have everything prepared. You are my friend (Y/N), how can I let you be trapped with a monster like him?”
She stood there, with a parched throat and welled-up eyes. This sounded too much of a risk. But was it not what she wanted? To get away from Kim Namjoon and his world?
“Namjoon will be at his ancestral home tonight…I will come to meet you in the evening. But for now, go, if anyone realises that you are here for too long, they might get suspicious.”
Jimin nodded at her words, and with a gentle and assuring squeeze on her shoulders, left. Leaving her deep in thought.
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