Dec 23, 2018
I know cutting my self won’t solve anything and will just make myself feel worse...but the urge is so strong.
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I know cutting my self won’t solve anything and will just make myself feel worse...but the urge is so strong.
This morning I woke up after a bad dream and it left me on the edge. After a shower I had a depressive episode - so bad I thought about how beautiful it would be to cut myself again (I’ve been three months clean). So I put on some sad music on from Spotify- hoping the music would make it better. It did. For a few minutes and I was able to stop my self from harming. Until something just snapped and I grabbed my extra sharp scissors. But just as I made the slice, luckily it was a dull one and didn’t go deep; I got scared/anxious over it. I threw the scissors across the room and held my arm to my chest as I tried to calm myself. Progress?