#alreadystressed

[newjourneywhodis]

1282 words later!!! I scrapped my original idea for my story, panicked, messaged my child @viola_beast, poured a glass of wine and started typing. Guess what! There was a story there. My goal tonight was to put words down and get started and I did!!! Now I can working figuring out a plot for this thing!😆 #nanowrimo #donttryandreadit #alreadystressed #kindaproud https://www.instagram.com/p/BpqTEA1gf0MSCfXETT0ftWuWdG-Gc5RLrRpFco0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1sc8gi9uerhr2

[rhuberrypie]

This always fucking happens

I begin to feel better than I get randomly sensitive one day and everything falls back apart

fuck this

[iitsallrealhere-blog]

so I got the job yay me!! not surprising that wedding planning is on my mind. I had forgotten about the stress of pleasing people and worrying about what they’ll say about how my wedding went down. I know people will talk. Te conosco mosco… I know what they're about. they can’t fool me. Its pretty easy to say “who cares what people think?!” or the usual “ who’s wedding is it?” 3/4 of those people secretly care. ( I hope that the correct percentage. I only use measuring cups) Oh well, I guess this is something that I’m gonna have in my mind till the day I get married or maybe a month after my wedding. Que fregados gano preocupandome de los demas?… what the heck do I win worrying about the rest? so i have decided, that if this wedding is ever going to happen I gotta just do it and not worry about what friends, family want and expect, but if you know me at all then you know that I will try to satisfy both sides, but only if I’m happy with it. I will not allow anyone to make me feel all crazy and wanna postpone the wedding, again.Let the planning begging! wish me happy planning! I was telling Jeremy about a wedding date idea and questions started arising. por ejemplo, location, entertainment, food which all leads us to $$ sometimes I day dream that I tell my sad story to one of las kardashians and they throw me a wedding. psshh! I wish. at least this time around, I have a job and that makes it all better and for sure a lot easier to plan a wedding. Its all in Gods hands and our paychecks, of course. I think about it everywhere. pinterest takes over my soul every night when I’m supposed to be sleeping. The backyard wedding. thats the type of wedding I want. I think about it everywhere. Pinterest takes over my soul every night when I’m supposed to be sleeping. I'm very indecisive. My fiancé can tell you without a doubt that I change my mind so many times. I need to pick a wedding Idea and just stick with it. I want fireworks. obviously, I aint no kardashian and can't afford my own. I can ask my primos… cousins from Tijuana to bring me some firecrackers from across the border. The loud whistling noise crackers I used to hear at my families house all night and new year morning, but thats not the type of loud noise I want at my wedding. So, I came out with the brightest idea of having a 4th of july wedding. A chill wedding, BBQ reception in a backyard type of theme and fire works. Free fireworks! I hope I make it work. And if not then you’ll hear me rant about another wedding date soon. Happy Superbowl, Sunday, guys! GO CHARGERS!

[zzippy]

in no way, shape, or form am I ready for a new term to start tomorrow. I don't have books, notebooks, or anything really. 

[ohhappymess]

July 6th;

didn't exist for me last year. I was flying across the world to New Zealand, and I just cannot believe it's been a year since I left to begin what would be the best six months of my life.  

 I think of New Zealand every day, and my body feels the strangest mixture of happiness and sadness when a random memory floats across my brain. 

My life is so different now. Monday is the start of my next few stressful months, with my first law school admission interview, my summer math class, and my LSAT prep class all happening at once. 

Currently fighting urges to run and disappear into the forest.  I did it once, and I will do it again.