#alterways

[crazylilmonkeypants]

This is happening right now. #WhoIsEatingAllThisShellfish

[crazylilmonkeypants]

This was a good day. -maddie

[crazylilmonkeypants]

Dialogue like a stream of consciousness. Come back here I was talking to you.

Its been a long day. I haven't even been out for it all and I can feel how long it's been. I'm already done with this upcoming week and it doesn't officially start til tomorrow. I'm hyper alert, hyper aware, and hyper sensitive. There are things wrong and I dont have any energy for wrong things. I have to gather up my monkeys put them back inside and carry on with the circus. My smile is dropping due to the weight in the rest of the face. I feel the tingling in my upper cheekbones like someone slowly lowering the drawbridge. Tiny face gnomes going about their lives of muscle work. Someone is digging in my memories. I cant begin to explain it but I'll try. Its like fingers massaging your scalp only inside the fleshy bit under the hair and bone. Picking out a memory, gnawing on it and the shoving it back wrong. With the shove back comes a giant flash across my eyes and along my senses. Tingles down the spine and something doesn't feel correct about the images being pulled up. They are looking for something that I dont even know if I hold. Now the feeling if digging passes and i get flashes of memories new. Not mine. Stabs to the heart and I hear laughter. Is it now or the memory... i dont know. A world of smells.. cycling in my nostrils. I smell cabbage cooking and the dirt the cakes my face. My dress is dirty and daddy is gonna be mad. No stop. Too far. Can't go there. I'd delete this but then you'd wonder why I didn't have anything to say for so long. I need air.