#ammoth

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ammoth replied to your post “I miss the snow mod I started Norma’s game with! I’ve no idea how long...”

THE ROBOT CHILD we haven't heard Norma and synthShaun's story yet!

RIGHT! :’D I’ve kinda talked about what happens with Shaun in Norma’s playthrough before but THIS WOULD BE THE PRIME TIME TO TALK ABOUT IT PROPERLY.

SO

first of all what the fuck is this imposter child it doesn’t even have red hair is it possible to edit your Shaun asking for ME--

FIRST OF ALL, meeting bab Shaun in the Institute and having Father disable him Fucked Up Norma big time. It’s been kinda hard for her to imagine what it’s like for people to see someone they love or even KNOW or THINK THEY KNOW turn out to be a synth, and here... here she definitely felt that. Her heart sank, she probably felt like throwing up there and then - I’ve been following a synth child. This is not my baby. This isn’t my baby. this isn’t--

I mean this child without a doubt is a person in her head, no question about it, but immediately the thought is ‘this isn’t MY child but someone’s been letting me think it is shitshithsi’ it’s just. a bunch of feelings hitting at once. ‘this isn’t my child’ ‘this is a trap’ ‘my child is probably gone’ etc, it Wasn’t a Good Time.

And that’s like where her Mourning begins and great I’m about to cry already - because even though she (unlike Jay) believes that Father IS Shaun, he was taken from her and in essence she DID lose her child and all she got for it was This Asshole, essentially - you  know, it’s. This is Shaun, but this isn’t her son either, if that makes sense, in anything other than the biological.

And then when the Institute was about to be blown up and up comes poor little robot child - I think Norma would have looked for him during Nuclear Option because the goal WAS to save everyone - she’d save this kid even though he wasn’t her Shaun, and even when he obviously doesn’t know her, he’d just. be somebody else’s child.

... and he calls her ‘mom’. Fuck. I can imagine how Norma would have shaken, how she’d feel like her knees are going to give, like this is where her journey may end, because it’s unfair, it isn’t right, it’s too much-- No. This isn’t her Shaun, she really doesn’t feel that he is - her Shaun is dying of cancer inside the Institute (and will be blown up by the bomb) and hates her and she him pretty much. It isn’t the right word, hate, it’s too simple for such a complicated mess feelings, but it’s close.

But - she’s not going to leave him there. She does tell him she’s not his mother, he’s not her son, even though it feels cruel, but... at the same time she really can’t take this child and be his mother. And that’s something she sees more and more when they take him to the Castle and are still looking for a new home for him - I think Norma stays a while at the Castle afterwards, because it’s secure and feels better then than Diamond City which... doesn’t have any of the people in it who went through all of this with her, right? So anyway, there she is, and there’s this child.

She tells Ellie - Ellie comes to be there for her - she tells Ellie one night that she can barely look at this Shaun, and every time they talk she wants to cry, and talks about (between crying herself ragged and hoarse and dry) how she feels like none of this was worth it, and how she can’t propelry mourn the loss of her child and keep THIS child but how at the same time she feels so guilty--

It’s a Time. But Shaun has good company in Sturges and many others, even if he doesn’t get his Mom. I’m sure it’s incredibly difficult for him too! Poor baby KNOWS Norma is his Mom! He’s been programmed to! And so it’s going to be incredibly difficult for him to understand why his Mom doesn’t want him and why she’s being Like That! Probably hates her like he says in the Institute if you keep telling him you’re not his parent. It’s gotta be Awful for him too! I don’t know if he’ll have his memory reprogrammed or not, but either way... it’s a Time for him too. (Like, Norma DEFINITELY, and probably the Railroad too, do not trust Father’s motivations behind this synth child and are probably really wary of any weird programming hiding in there in the child’s programming; you just don’t know.)

Eventually Shaun is found a new home and Norma never sees him again, or maybe she does, when she’s a ghoul and decades have passed and she meets this young man who looks remarkably like her late husband, only like Small (this synth grows up to a certain point and then stops, my fun my rules). I don’t know.

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ammoth replied to your photo “XV - The Devil - Shrike Bird Tarot”

…huh. Would you be willing to explain your choice for this card?

Shrikes are evil little creatures. They hang their kills on thorns for later and sometimes never even get around to eating them. The contrast with how cute they look was quite interesting and fitting.

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Is it about that Brot flavored chocolate because it was fucking gold

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ammoth

  listen not to be dramatic but i think i just...

you will be fine, though this is very funny %)

i was just taking a drink of water as i read this reply and almost choked on it bc i started laughing so thats my second brush with death of the night thank you very much 😂😂

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Coloured Lined Commission for @ammoth !

I adore these babs, they were so fun to draw <3

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ammoth replied to your photo “Tyln - Kenku Monk my tiny fight bird…. i love her”

oh man I love her. Tell us more about her?

thank you, ammoth!

tyln was outcast decades prior for a crime she didnt commit, partially because shes a kenku (they dont have the best reputation), and partially because she was in the wrong place at the wrong time. she stumbled upon a monastery in her wanderings outside of society and ended up finding peace there, eventually discovering a purpose in her life, that purpose being to help others and try to bring inner peace to other people

more than a decade she spent in that monastery, before feeling it was time to venture back into society and see how things had changed in her absence. she had grown from a terrified street urchin who had been wrongly accused to a humble monk who could look after herself and then some, and she felt no fear upon returning back

eventually, as things go, she met up with an adventuring party, and thats where she is now! doing whatever needs to be done with her adventurer friends, going wherever fate decides to take her. 

her alignment is chaotic good; she tries her best to do the right thing but has no qualms with going against society’s laws to do it. she prefers pacifism to fighting, but can pack a punch of she needs to. all in all shes quiet and rarely speaks, preferring to listen and observe

a good, kind friend