Jul 28, 2024
is anyone else gonna draw and/or write t4t charpim or am i gonna have to
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is anyone else gonna draw and/or write t4t charpim or am i gonna have to
do you ever. look at how talented your mutuals are and think "i love you. also why do you follow me"
i just realized the next chapter of daahf is the last real chapter and now im sad lol
i just had a very jarring realization. 13 year-olds were born in 2011.
i logged each time i cried in 2024 and i'm gonna do a powerpoint presentation like spotify wrapped. idk if anyone would be interested in seeing it but i'm probably gonna post it tomorrow anyway lmao
i keep getting hit with these like. weird waves of sadness over liam's passing yesterday?? a big chunk of what shaped me as a person during my teenage years is gone and it's such a weird and sad feeling.
i don't really have the words to describe how i feel about this (well, i do, but they're not like. brief. or clear). the liam payne i'm sad about losing was gone awhile ago, i know that, but part of me always hoped he would get to receive the professional help he so clearly needed.
anyone who was obsessed with one direction knew that liam really lost his way and fell into addiction almost immediately after the band broke up. he's needed help for years. he did go to rehab awhile back and started to heal a bit but clearly things got bad again.
i'm aware that death does not make someone innocent. you are allowed to be surprised and sad by the tragic loss of a life while also holding them accountable for the shitty things they've done. those two things can and should coexist. i know the internet is allergic to nuance but PLEASE exercise some critical thinking and perspective. this is not as black and white as it seems to be on the surface. keep in mind that there's also a lot that we just don't know.
this grief is so nuanced. like i said, i don't support what he has done in the past -- i haven't supported him in YEARS because of the things he's said and done. i stand w all of his victims that spoke up, and i hope they're all doing okay rn and that they know that none of this is their fault.
there's something so weird and sad about combing the emotions of coming to terms with the fact that the person you idolized as a teen turned out to be a bad person, along with the rough and weird feelings of grief that come with that same person dying suddenly, gruesomely, and tragically.
this is all so tragic, so weird, so surreal, and SO hard. there's a lot of weird conflicting and nuanced emotions running through not just me, but so many of us who grew up loving one direction. i'm aching for 12-15 year old me who wouldn't recover from this. i'm destroyed for his son who survives him, his family, friends, and the other one direction boys. my heart also aches for his victims, who i'm sure are experiencing a lot of conflicting and weird emotions about this. i can't imagine what they're all going through right now and can only hope they're doing okay.
this is the first major celebrity death ive experienced, at least with a celebrity i genuinely loved and obsessed over growing up. ik a lot of people feel the same way too.
whatever you're feeling about this right now is valid. you have the right to feel however you feel. you can mourn the loss of someone who meant a lot to you as a child while also remembering that they turned out to be a bad person.
sorry i keep talking abt this but it hits so hard. like i said like 30 times this is so weird and hard and confusing to a lot of us one direction fans who stopped supporting liam a while back bc of his actions. grieving with perspective and nuance is necessary here but it's not easy.
i hope my fellow one direction fans are doing okay today <3
i've had a stuffy nose and a headache for a week now what is happening
when you're reading (posts, books, fics, literally anything with words), do you hear the words in your head? like someone is speaking?
yes
sometimes
no
nuance/some other answer/results
i'm curious bc apparently this doesn't happen to everyone. i was talking about it with my family and i'm the only one that has this happen. but like, what else is supposed to happen when you read 🧍🏻♂️
if this doesn't happen to you pls explain what happens in your head when you're reading something, i'm very intrigued