#and caffeinated

[vermin-is-a-rat]

probalby shoukd eat actual food today

the ever so temping snacks: hey

[betweentheheavesofstorm]

in unrelated news the fic i said confidently "shouldn't be over 10k" is currently 4k long and like...maybe a quarter done

[lokifreign]

you might be a tetrachromat

thoughts been rolling around in my head since the “magenta isn’t real?!?!?” post showed up.

• so: but: like: all the colors are fake - 

or, invented by the brain to represent something in the sensual world. As all words are made up, all names are given names, all experienced memories are new constructs. Color is a thing the brain does with its information! :) it’s good, it’s magic.

• Right now, prevailing scientific theory is a lot more conservative than I am in estimating how many tetrachromats there are. Science seems to hint that it’s passed through the X chromosome.

• (Quick Science Fun Sidebar: turns out non-mutant eyeballs work somewhat differently than we thought) Eyes are in the top five weirdest evolutionary consequences don’t you think? absurd to imagine that we “know” what’s going on with visual processing any more clearly than we grok gravity or the weak force - the eye is still mostly a complete mystery. For this reason I think it’s pertinent to experimentally assume that our lived experiences can add to the volume of scientific data about chromacy in general. Whooo

'Tetrachromat’ means an eye has a mutant cell. The tetrachromatic eye-bearer can (we now know) see (oh just so many) more colors than the average. In my experience it’s possible for these extra colors to kind of “disappear” across puberty, though I taught myself to see them as a kid, because they aren’t represented in language or media. For that reason it’s one of those things you can’t really test for on the internet, but there are ways to find out. Even if you don’t have the cell, the exercises for it are mentally rigorous and probably healthful brain-training.

I’m a tetrachromat; take that how you will! Burn me if you can catch me. It’s not even the weirdest basic-physical thing about me, so, yeah I might need to be burned at the stake one of these days. 

One effect of tetrachromacy is that all screens look a certain way to me (that I gather they don’t to others) - it’s impossible to depict real color on screens, to me; it will never look real or right. The artwork I make (and which of it I’ll put on the web / into digital form if it didn’t start there) is heavily affected by this; it’s gotten more extreme as digital images have gone from a niche thing to worldwide dominance. Way less than ‘half colored’. Remember in the late 60s & 70s how they’d put out comics in which every component was inked a solid color? Peter Parker green, Jonah Jameson red, background YELLOWWWW (brrr) - that’s what most digital art looks like to me when compared to a painting or nondigital photograph - even b&w / silver prints look vastly more colorful to my eyeball than screens. The really expensive screens have this (nifty but distracting) 2.5D thing going on, too, where there are all these neon outlines and everything is floating an inch off the screen.

 I recently discovered a friend of mine is, too, when he said “I love that one blue-amber color the sky has at certain times of day”. I was like “??! ooooh you see it!” and quizzed him about other off-trail colors: “how about the vibrating blue-yellow? you know about the neon grey-orange-blue right? and the green version??” and we talked about the Color Out Of Space for an hour. Then we talked about screens & analog vs digital. Him being a cismale tends to support my theory that the scientists have not yet figured out how this thing expresses itself physically. We can find woman-tetrachromats easier for reasons that are tantalizingly clear to me but nearly impossible to put into words. This language / medium gap fucks other fields up, too, is my guess - redacts our data set.

I hereby hypothesize that gnc/genderfluid and enby people may be more likely to be able to experience and communicate a physically expressed tetrachromacy gene! [thunderclap] due to different experience of society / socialization & relationship to language. 

anyway; google it “tetrachromat” and try some stuff out - let’s increase the official numbers! and take over this planet

[keepingcalmisoverratedgoddamnit]

People watching while I have breakfast. Such fun.

[quasarden]

Listen, all I wanna do in life is open my own bakery/coffee shop. And I've done my best to pursue acquiring the skills and knowledge on how to do that. But nowadays I feel like the future is entirely terrifying and out of my control and great googly-moogly it's all gone to shit.

[jeffysatur]

anyways always fun to liveblog now to make myself a coffee and sit in silence under my weighted blanket and decompress from my fkn awful day

[oddsnendsfanfics]

This is what two, almost middle aged, women fueled by enough caffeine to power a jet can achieve before lunchtime.

That's a Queen mattress, in my car...we had it folded to shut the hatchback, too.