I've sacrificed so much for them.
My childhood was ripped away
And it's not their fault.
I was a parent- am a parent.
Because our parents needed help.
Because their parents couldn't handle the both of us.
Because I was there, Willing And Able
"Oh, we can fight like we used to fight
Bony-limbed, red-faced, and teary-eyed
Under the glow of the TV light, I'd be Willing and Able"
Please, let's go back to how we used to fight
Unable to understand why I can't let you go
Unable to know that I need you
Unable to comprehend that you are why I manage to live in this house
Because you've never had to parent your parents
Because you were always your age
Because I love you, have always loved you, and can't let you suffer.
"Go ahead, take the drinks, the world belongs to you"
The world belongs to you.
"Oh, I wish you could know me
And I wish I could know you much more sometimes"
Because I didn't get a chance to find me.
And I want to know you more,
Know you like a sibling should
Not a parent, not a therapist
"Wish I could do nothing with you
Sit in the yard while the day dies, leave it all on the table
And I'll say I love you and mean it this time"
I'm so sorry for all the times
All the times I let my anger towards them
All the times I failed you
As a parent. As a sibling. I can't be both.
"If you're willing, I'm able"
