Aug 20, 2022
This meaningless life of mine.
I watch as the people I grew up with live their lives in this world. I watch them find jobs, move out, buy a place to live, get married, have children. I stay here watching it all.
They think I'm crying because I don't have what they have.
How do I explain that I'm crying because I don't want what they have? And that that feels far worse?
#i dont want any of it#i dont want to live these lives#but im made to feel like im inadequate#and lacking behind#like having none of these things makes my life worthless#and thats it exactly#i feel worthless whether have or dont have these things#how on earth do i explain that#i dont want to or need to explain#let this world be for those who fit in its mould#i want to leave#life#friends#family#marriage#children#growing up#wordsindisguise#ticket 137