It's not that I don't like talking about my identity and how being nonhuman affects my daily life, but trying to explain it to someone that doesn't understand it is just really, really exhausting.
And it's not anyone's fault but mine, because I'm the one who overthinks what I said and keeps going back to it because I could've said it better or used a better analogy, but the more I try to find simple ways to explain it, the more it makes me doubt my own feelings.
I keep worrying that I'll get something like "Well, everyone does that!" or "That's a normal thing to feel, you don't have to put a label on everything!" or "Doing/feeling that doesn't make you not human!" in response. Even if it's someone that I know would never say these things.
I feel like I have to justify everything I feel and how I label myself or else I'm not valid. I can't bring myself to even think about mentioning kinsidering or something until I'm 110% sure, and even then it sounds stupid and excessive to have more and more kintypes.
I don't sound real to myself. If you listed all my characteristics as those of a different person, I'd be the first to scream that they're valid, but for some reason, I'm a freak and nobody will ever get me because I can't talk about myself without cringing.
