#nonhuman vent

[archiethepuppyboy]

[oddlygreenonion]

I need to hunt really badly. I don't want to want this, I feel ashamed of it, I can't talk about it without cringing or sounding like I'm trying to be edgy and cool, but that's genuinely how I feel and I have no outlet for it that's satisfying enough. I want to stalk something and then chase it through a dense forest, barking and growling like a bloodthirsty beast and I'm so ashamed of it.

"Hunt your plushies!" "Eat beef jerky!" "Do some sports!"

It doesn't WORK. I've tried SO hard, I've put SO much effort into finding a way to satisfy that feeling but I CAN'T. I'm not in my habitat and I don't have the correct body and I can't just go out and kill something or someone. There's just not a way to fix it. I feel like an addict being deprived and it's stressing me out so much.

[mxmorbidmidnight]

Being an uncommon kin type is so lonely. That solidarity that other therians get from others of their kind, relating to what they say and connecting with them. When I post about being a goose there isn’t anyone out there who will reply and understand exactly what I mean. I find myself wishing that my kin type could have its own communities and that there’s a chance I could meet someone else like me in real life. Theres that level of connection that you can never find. No matter how loudly you call out there isn’t anybody out there. It’s especially lonely when you’re a species that needs companionship to survive

[cowboy-canine]

I feel like folks don’t talk about the sometimes awful mental affects of species dysphoria enough

I feel like over time I get increasingly frustrated and angry from it, and feel just mentally drained from it before I break down and repeat the cycle

I’ve gotten self aggressive and cried because of it

maybe the fact it affects me like that is a issue, but unfortunately there’s no real cure, and that’s the problem really, can’t do anything about it

[paxthepuppycat]

this isn’t my body.

THIS ISNT MY BODY.

[mopni905]

I have no issue with delusion based Alterhumans you guys are valid!!

But I can’t tell if I’m delusional or transspecies atp.

My body looks like a wolf to me. I don’t hallucinate but I .. I am built so wolfish. And my body behaves like that of a wolf. I can scratch my ear with my foot. I move my nose and my ears and they react on their own to my surroundings. I have monthly heats instead of periods or before them. I can’t stand up straight. I can’t sleep without my pack being there with me I have to listen to breathing sounds and convince myself they are there otherwise the silence terrifies me. I cannot stop myself from howling if anyone else howls. I didn’t teach myself wolf vocals other than growling and I never could have gotten this good naturally they just happened and happen no matter how hard I try to mask. I’ve been getting more and more sensitive to sound and scents and I can even smell other being’s pheromones. I’ve been craving meat to the point of drooling and I’ve literally never eaten meat in my entire life. I can’t walk on two legs only four I have to use a cane to try. I can go a day or longer without eating and not feel any effects of it. I go rabid more and more often turning into a wolf mentally unable to communicate beyond growls and woofs I feel like I may be loosing my ability to speak English altogether and communicate with humans.. I don’t feel human I don’t look human I don’t act human there’s nothing left to prove of my humanity. Am I a human?? Physically? Biologically? Am I delusional? Am I trans? I get offended and turn my nose when someone says I was born human is that because I have always been transspecies or is that because I don’t believe it?? I can’t even tell. It matters so much to me that I know. I.. I know I’m a wolf.. but .. was I born physically a wolf? Do I have wolf dna in my genes? Am I a regression of the human race? A de evolution to bring us back to the wild? Why am I so unhappy with being in a civilization. Why do I turn my snouts at the way humans live. Why am I disgusted by their dietary habits. Why . Am. I . Like. This. I’ve been deluded before.. but I always knew deep deep down it was fake or a coping mechanism. This is just me. What am I..:

[slashrrbat]

I dont mean to be like a hater or anything but like im lowkey tired of seeing the same 20000 "erm i love biting things!!! ☝️" vampirekin posts..

Like do i love biting? Sure!! But i wanna see other vamps actual experience with their identity instead of seeing the same filler posts over and over.

And not gonna lie some of the posts i see kind of make me think of kinnies/kff and im not sure if some people who like vampires post in the vampirekin tag or what but i just wanna see actual experiences 🥹

(And im not accusing individuals of not being vamps or whatever its just very odd seeing everyone post the same thing over and over)

[visceral-flesh]

I know everyone in non/alterhuman community always makes jokes about these 'prove you're human' captchas (hell our host posted one the other day lmao) but I wonder, does anyone else get genuinely upset by these?

I don't mean the jokes btw, I mean the captcha itself

I know it's probably a really dumb thing to get upset over and the wording on a captcha doesn't mean a damn thing but still, it gets to me

Maybe that's just because I'm ahuman but it makes me upset to even think about having to 'prove I'm human' when I'm not

It makes me feel sick

I don't want to be seen as human, I don't want to be labeled as human, I don't want other people to call me human, I don't want to call myself human, I don't even want entertain the mere suggestion that I could be a human or anything similar to it

Again, I know that the wording on captchas don't mean shit, but I can't help that it makes me upset, it just does

I certainly don't wanna have to get upset every time I log into something online, it's exhausting

I guess it kinda gives a feeling of dysphoria? I dunno that's what our host Berri says, even he isn't sure though cause he only experiences gender dysphoria but I've heard species dysphoria is a thing so maybe that's what it is

Idk

I guess I kinda just wanna know that I'm not alone in this feeling, that I'm not just being worthlessly dramatic