#and reading!

[hqtchniss]

can i post another fic 2nite or is that too crazy

[bisexualbrainrots]

the bronchitis has kept me with so little energy these days I got surprised when I started receiving hunger cues today (I honestly hate when I don't feel like eating while sick), like I genuinely got happy to feel hungry again 🥺

[jamietarttsnorthernattitude]

chapter 2 was sooo good! Roy’s sooo hard on himself about keeley and about his past! Like yes he fucked up but ROY be nicer to urself :((

Thank you!!!! And yes, Roy is spiraling a wee bit!

He’s thinks he doesn’t have rose colored glasses on but he’s looking at Keeley with rose colored glasses for sure.

I think Roy (and Jamie too) view being with Keeley as a measuring stick to how good of a person they are. Like if he was a better person he wouldn’t have fucked it up with Keeley when in reality things might not have worked with her anyway. He thinks if he was a better person they would have gotten back together. And now he’s stuck in the upside down (because of his wish) faced with his worst case scenario regarding not only Keeley but everything. And Keeley is being her helpful, caring self so it’s just reinforcing (for Roy) how much he fucked up.

But yeah, in typical Roy fashion he’s being extremely hard on himself! We’ll see if chapter 3 gets any better for him :)

[amoristt]

ive been waiting for gtf part 4 since u first posted prt 3😭!!!!!! im so happy ur back omg

bless you for your continued support and patience <3

[aewriting]

5, 6, 28?

Thanks for the ask!

5. Share one of your strengths.

I think I’m good at characterizations, and I enjoy exploring that, getting inside a character’s head.

6. Share one of your weaknesses.

I’ve never worked with a beta (or really gotten any critical feedback on my fiction writing since high school English, which was almost 20 years ago), so I think sometimes I might have a tendency to be wordier than I should, or have a tough time editing out things that maybe I should.

28. Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

This is really hard to do, because I think there are so many excellent writers in the RNM fandom, but here are three that stand out off the top of my head.

I love @ninswhimsy ‘s writing style - it’s very unique, and the way she portrays a character’s inner monologue, specifically, is very inspiring to me.

@myrmidryad has blown me away with their fics. Just absolutely unparalleled world building - Shadow Work remains one of the best pieces of entertainment I’ve read in a long time. I wish I could write like that and plot like that!

I also love the way @beamirang writes, particularly her ability to write in a nonlinear fashion and drop little plot breadcrumbs along the way.

[djhedy]

3, 15, and/or 24 for the fic ask meme?

from end of year asks post

thank you anon <3 i am currently on holiday by myself in middle-of-nowhere welsh countryside not entirely sure whether i’m enjoying the solitude or not, so allow me to be indulgent (below the cut-off, of course)

3. favorite line/scene you wrote this year

2019 is the year i rejoined fandom! i grew up reading and writing harry potter fanfic, took many-years break, and came back in january 2019, post-break-up, for the raven cycle and all for the game. so it’s really been a year of learning how to write again, learning how i like writing. it turns out i really like one-sentence paragraphs. here are some examples i can think of, i guess i do this style a lot, which i do unapologetically.

from (trc) alive, alive alive

Something tugged inside Ronan and he stomped outside. He made his way towards the first field and just started walking, jacket forgotten, boots sliding easily through wet grass, skylight dimming, his breath coming out in shudders like smoke, and at some point Opal had come running out of a hedge or a tree or a rock, had run rings around him, had shown him all the stones she’d found that she thought looked like her opal, and he’d nodded, had accepted a stone in cold dry fingers, had felt it in his palm all rough texture against rough texture, had watched her bobbing head as she exhausted herself against the day, had looked at the wet grass curled around his boots, at the line of trees curling at the foot of the hill, at the dissipating clouds in the paling orange sky.

from (trc) sunlight feels good now don’t it

When Adam woke up it was to tight skin and dreams of his father towering above him, Adam on the ground, please stop please stop please stop and his left ear ringing – he touched it, vacant, elsewhere; it was to loud warring voices in his head and him, frowning, and not opening his eyes as he thought I overreacted, Gansey wasn’t saying – but also – I am broken and he knows he knows he doesn’t want me to break him too – and he swung a leg out of bed, and then the other, eyes still closed, and thought – I really don’t think that’s what he meant, this isn’t fucking logical Adam – but also ­– but ok we do know I’m manipulative and selfish and weren’t those the exact qualities Gansey’s afraid of – and then he opened his eyes and his skin was crawling and his father was walking towards him and he just wanted it to stop and he imagined smashing a glass into a wall and wished for a split second it was his father’s face, no, he wished it was his face – it was a little your fault, wasn’t it Adam? – and then he opened his eyes, stared, a little stunned, blood on his knuckles and the bathroom mirror shattered, glass dripping into the sink, and from somewhere far away Daniel’s voice, “Adam?”

from (aftg) hold me close

“I don’t need protecting, and you promised to stop that bullshit a long time ago. Do you understand or do I need to repeat myself?”

              There’s a couple of birds flying overhead, their calls to each other just loud enough to filter through the pounding in his head, and it sounds like the sky is singing, and then he can hear waves too, crashing against the sand he’s standing on, and it’s like he’s trapped in a soundscape that he hadn’t been listening to before – or maybe wasn’t able to hear – but suddenly it snaps back to him with a jolt of colour, and noise, and the understanding that he’s barely awake, that he’s standing right where his mother died, screaming at someone he doesn’t want to live without.

so, yeh, there’s that. but also here is a favourite single line i can think of, from (trc) sunlight:

This speech had been made to the sky, and Adam spent a while after he’d finished speaking wondering at the appropriateness of that. That someone the scale of Ronan could only fit into something as infinite and wondrous as the sky.

15. something you learned this year

ah man. idk. i spent a lot of this year digesting my own mental health / general life woes by reading and writing fanfic. so something i’ve learned. maggie s said in a writing seminar you can’t write about a problem you have if you haven’t solved it yet. i think about this a lot. i think about writing adam parrish grappling with the concept of anger, thinking of himself as a monster he can’t escape; neil josten unable to admit something’s wrong, unable to take the first steps in fixing what’s wrong in his brain chemistry. idk. maybe i was able to write these stories because i have, at least partly, dealt with my own issues with the concept of anger, with taking a step forwards in seeking help. maybe it’s because i’m in fandoms where we fucking love talking about our problems. which i think is a really really good thing. or maybe il reread these two stories in a few years’ time and think “hoo boy she really was still in the thick of it and had no idea eh”.

this was supposed to be what have i learned. i have learned that:

it is ok to use writing fanfic as a way to learn about yourself; but it can’t be everything

it is ok to use reading fanfic as a way to feel your emotions safely; but it can’t be everything

be yourself! that is what i have learned. the rest will follow.

24. favorite fic you read this year

my gosh well that’s not fair because i’ve read essentially the entire backlog of the trc and aftg top hits this year and then some. however, these are the ones that stuck out, that i’ll keep going back to (ignoring like the five you’ve all already read anyway):

(the raven cycle) Like Storms: this fic man… selectively mute adam meets gansey and ronan at college, and they in turn meet ghost!noah in a church and… i dont know my heart just Did Not Cope. i don’t know how to explain how special this one is, except to really emphasise that i spent this year really only reading fanfiction, and this is the one i’m choosing to recommend.

(harry potter) Away Childish Things: this broke me. it’s basically an excuse to have harry and draco deal with their traumas by meeting the younger version of each other, and figuring out shit they should have figured out already. it’s, genuinely, one of the most beautiful things i’ve ever read.

(all for the game) we might be hollow: im going to cheat and very quickly give you this, possibly my favourite long fic? neighbours au, and, stunning, i just remember the pacing was perfect and i felt like *a lot*. BUT im sorry can i also just very quickly shove this in your face. paper skies: favourite short, hands down, no contest. absolutely gorgeous short piece about andrew’s favourite colour, and how he uses it to search for meaning in his life. i’ve read this one so many times. 

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ok that’s all. ask me more questions if you can stand such long answers.

[outerspaceisbetterthannothing]

Thank you letter to everyone out there 🖤

I wanna write another pathetic letter expressing my love to all of you, so bare with me, please!

The reaction I got to “The girl who cried wolf” is absolutely insane and I can’t really believe so many people liked it 😭 Thank you, thank you, thank you, wonderful people! It was hell of a ride to write (thanks to my pixie @bringmethehorizonandpizza for hyping me all the way through) and I couldn’t be happier with the result and the feedback!

I’m going to focus on writing the next chapter of my Cal masterpiece fic “Blame” later this week, but I do have a strong feeling we’ll see Alpha!Cal again 😈

I’m still in the middle of my Followers Celebration Week and gonna spend half of today and tomorrow working on requests. The bigger one and blurb requests take a little more time, sorry for making you wait and thank you one more time for sending asks! Also, the most insane news is that as far is that Celebration was of reaching 200 followers, I’ve almost 300 by now (sick!), so if you wanna send more request, just do it! I think I can expand the Celebration to the next weekend.

Cutting it short, I love all of you, beautiful people! Thank you for your kindness and support! Hope all of you have wonderful end of the week! Take care and smile more! You’re so pretty when you smile 🖤🖤🖤

- K.