#andy's shit

[nagashika]

this trend is now dying on instagram but fuck it, i love doing these collages 

here is the one i did for my aoba cosplay huehuehue i also did one for deku and nishinoya, i’ll post them later 

Koujaku is @zombie-mazter

Noiz is @clarenzz

Aoba is myself lmao

[nagashika]

umh, it’s been ages since i’ve uploaded a selfie here soooo!!!! here i am to ruin your dash ;^) 

i did on facebook this cosplayer tag and it asked to put a picture with 3 cosplays and 1 out of cosplay and i kinda liked it so yeah! excuse the poor quality from both the picture and the cosplay itself lmao i chose these three cosplays because i enjoy them so much when i wear them!!!! my friends have made me feel really confident with my Aoba, Deku and Yuuri ;u; (ignore my normal face in the last picture it sucks lmao) 

that’s it uwu! idk if i should upload my cosplay content here.... anyways, please follow me on instagram, where i put a lot of the cosplay i do and the science things i do at my university :3 also, stuff from my daily life lmao :^)

[nagashika]

i kinda wanna vent about something but there is a lot of stuff going on i dont know what to say 

[nagashika]

fuck everything

i still cant fucking understand... did i do something wrong? wasn’t i mature enough? was it bc i can’t afford many things? .... i cant even cry, im just sad and.... 

i should have not became so attached.. and dedicate her all these nice songs.... 

why these things happen every single time i feel like everything is alright? crap... 

for the love of god, please dont hate me.... everythine i see your name online i fight the urge to talk to you because it seems you didn’t want to keep talking after we broke up... i cant figure out the ways you said you were being harmful to me, tbh i think that is complete bullshit... i wanted you to be sincere with me, to talk about what was happening, but you didnt wanted to.... im sorry if i ever hurt you by not being able to be physically there.... im sorry if i ever made a mistake, or if i couldnt fullfill your expectations.... im sorry you had to keep up with my dysphoria and gender issues.... 

shit, i miss you so much... i miss you so fucking much

[nagashika]

man, i feel so irrelevant.... 

[nagashika]

i feel pathetic (i need to write down things, dont read these) 

i know the things happening rn arent the worst but idk, i just feel overwhelmed and its pathetic because im really really considering killing myself

but  i think too much and i know that dying will bring a lot of shit to everyone, and also im scared because of the memories ppl will have of me

i dont know, i dont know why am i still alive i mean im basically everything the world hates

fat, trans, queer, closeted, stupid, slow... people think im funny because i use self deprecating humour ajhahjahahaha i am indeed pathetic 

[nagashika]

idk i really like cosplaying yuuri katsuki <3 i know my wig isn’t the most adequate but i don’t want to cut it rn until i get to understand how it works aahahah 

im excited because next week im trying to be able to attend to a cosplay event on another city, in which two friends and i will cosplay boku no hero academia and im <3 i need to re style my deku wig!!! aaaaa <3 

[nagashika]

she’s gaining me every second, and im too weak i’m already surrendering to her... and im totally okay with that