Dress Shopping = Ridiculous Amounts of Motivation
Yesterday was a bad day. But I think it is a turning point. I went wedding dress shopping because I am getting married in 78 days. The girl at Davids Bridal was awful. I felt huge and all the comments and dresses made me feel worse. They tried to pressure me into buying a dress and the used car salesman/panic tactics were HORRIBLE. a plus size bride has a difficult time as it is, this is not the time to be pressuring her to buy a $600 dress she doesn't love. what jerks. I came home and worked out and told myself that the issues and frustrations I had today about my size, my arms, my back fat, my stomach, those were all things I had CONTROL over. Those are things I can change. Those women being mean, that's their problem. Not mine. But I can work hard, eat better and change my body. That is within my power and I have not taken back control in the area. I've been half heartedly eating healthy and working out 2x a week typically. Bullcrap. That's for maintenance, not loss. So I'm restarting the 30 day shred, getting back to clean eating 80/20 and determined to push myself for the next 3 months. If anything is worth losing weight for, it's my wedding day. If there is anything I want to devote energy and hard work to, it is my wedding night. I'll be stronger, fitter, more confident and proud of myself. And this isn't about my fiance. He loves ALL of me and has said so and proved it so often. This is about me and what I know I NEED to do to be healthy and fit. So thank you David's Bridal. You may be responsible for helping me fit into my wedding dress, one I will NOT be buying from you