hostages by the mountain goats is sort of jake berenson-ish to me plus its just a generally good song
Hostages by The Mountain Goats
If I can (as always) add my own Jake Berenson song:
And So It Went by The Pretty Reckless
And so it went/ The children lost their minds/ Crawling over bodies of those who gave their lives.../ They said "the world does not belong to you... It belongs to me."
Mostly about Tobias going through every stage of pining for Rachel while wanting to fly away.
(And because this is the 90s, TW for drug abuse, child abuse, and rape in music videos i.e. "Runaway Train")
Shout-out to the delightful Morph Club Cast for kicking off this tumblr and this Tobias post! Check out their podcasts, especially Episode 42 (Book 33: The Illusion) for Goo Goo Dolls discussion goodness.
Click below for playlist breakdown and commentary.
But first! A confession: The lead singers for Soul Asylum and Goo Goo Dolls are how I envision an older Tobias: stringy hair hiding hollowed eyes, gaunt features that are somehow still handsome, and a raspy voice that isn't used to speaking. xD
1. Foo Fighters - "Learn To Fly" (1999) [lyrics]
Hook me up a new revolution / 'Cause this one is a lie
Tobias before that fateful night in the construction site. Always feeling out of place, always searching for something more.
Now I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking 'cause I'm tired of lying
Make my way back home when I learn to fly high.
2. Lenny Kravitz - "Fly Away" (1998) [lyrics]
I want to get away / I want to fly away
Self-explanatory. Captures the thrill and freedom of first flight for a pre-nothlit Tobias. Empowered Tobias, yeah!
He doesn’t remember because he’s a hawk and hawks don't have lips, ahhh~!
Oh man. Here is the quintessential nothlit Tobias theme song. You have to watch this video. Every time the chorus comes on and I see those missing photos? I cry a little inside, knowing that if Tobias had a normal home life he would've been one of them. But he didn't. No one cared that he disappeared.
It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep / There's no way out
He's trapped forever, noooo~
4. Goo Goo Dolls - "Iris" (1998) [lyrics]
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
He can’t cry either because he’s still a hawk.... :(
Our first Tobias/Rachel song. All the lyrics are perfect. Tobias doesn’t want anyone to see him, but just know he’s still there. Trapped.
This song featured on the City of Angels (1998) soundtrack, which I listened to repeatedly in middle school. The movie is about an angel who falls in love with a human who can’t see him... and... Ngh. Probably the most unironic role Nicolas Cage has ever done.
5. Nelly Furtado - "I'm Like A Bird" (2000) [lyrics]
Each and every single day I know
I'm going to have to eventually give you away
A more upbeat but still sad Tobias/Rachel song. The lyrics happily use a bird metaphor to express how torn and hesitant Tobias is about pursuing a relationship with Rachel when he's a bird boy. Just fighting that impulse to fly away because too many feels and complications.
6. Love Spit Love - "How Soon Is Now?"
(1996 cover of 1985 song by The Smiths) [lyrics, also see video]
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
Tobias coming to terms with his duality and acknowledging his human side. Just gotta get over that shyness, boy!
I always thought the lyrics were “I am the sun / I am the air” but it’s even better because Tobias is actually The Son and kind of an heir???!!!
I am the son / I am the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular
I also loved Charmed as a kid, so don’t judge me on using this version and not The Smiths. That show had great 90s flair.
PAUSE!
Spoiler Alert!
The last few are about The End. I shall not speak of what happens, but beware of spoilers and Heavy Implications of Sad Times.
7. Tonic - "If You Could Only See" (1996) [lyrics]
Well you got your reasons
And you got your lies
And you got your manipulations
They cut me down to size
Tobias directing his anger and every-sad-emotion-ever at Jake. All the lyrics are perfect for this. Take your pick.
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one?
Just... tears.
Wikipedia: “[The song] is based on a woman who is struggling with a heroin addiction and her lover who is desperately trying to save her... Also about ‘seeing someone you love that is so great just screw up so bad.’"
But for me? I see this as Tobias wanting to save Rachel from the warrior/soldier role she fell into.
One line in the chorus really gets me every time. Can you guess which one?
And I'll become / What you became to me
9. Red Hot Chili Peppers - "Scar Tissue" (1999) [lyrics]
With the birds I'll share this lonely view
Most of the lyrics are irrelevant, but the chorus hook and melancholy guitar riffs more than make up for it. The last progression also adds bittersweet closure to this playlist.
The book by the same title is about the consequences of heroin and how it can ruin a life. I’ve found many lyrics about drug addiction can be applied to the PTSD the kids go through. Just replace [drug name] with [war]. Expect to see this recurring in other playlists.
Hope you enjoyed it! And please send in your own Animorphs tunes to share with the group. :)
Slides in here “What Have They Done To Us” ft. Sasha Alex Sloan from the Arcane OST is IMO a really good Berenson Cousins/Animorphs song and I needed to share the thought process
"What Have They Done To Us" by Mako, Grey, & Sasha Alex Sloan
Yes, I hear it — the Arcane soundtrack goes hard. So many Rachel feels.
As always: other people weigh in with other Jake and Rachel type songs!
“Are You That Somebody” by Aaliyah is SUCH a good Tobias/Rachel song like specifically the lyrics “I’ve been watching you like a hawk in the sky and you were my prey” and “you can’t tell anybody, cause I’m not just anybody” bro tell me not
“Are You That Somebody” by Aaliyah. Hadn't heard it before, but hell yeah.
If I can add my own favorite Rachel/Tobias song of the day:
"Everything" by Alanis Morissette
You see everything, you see every part/ You see all my light and you love my dark/ You dig everything of which I'm ashamed/ There's not anything to which you can't relate/ And you're still here/ I'm terrified and mistrusting and you've never met anyone/ Who's as closed down as I am sometimes.../ But you're still here