#anoreic

[chaoticheadcase1994]

Tumblr's new rules absolutely suck

Not just because my old blog (xxperfectlyinsanexx) was deleted, or even because so many of my favorite blogs were deleted. But because I'm afraid to reblog any pictures with self harm scars in them. Not just thinspo, anything at all. Or post any pictures of myself, because I have self harm scars all over my body. My scars, and other people's scars, aren't explicit. They're beautiful. They're signs that we survived. I love my scars. They're actually one of the very few parts of my body that I find beautiful. I wish Tumblr would at least accept them.

[nymeriaixchel]

Mi meta no es morirme de hambre, es pasar hambre hasta que muera.

[chaoticheadcase1994]

Anorexia and alcoholism may seem like an unlikely combination, but unfortunately they get along very well. The less I eat, the drunker I get on less alcohol. As someone who isn't exactly rich, this is definitely a benefit. Plus, alcohol has calories. Not a lot, but some. So I eat even less to make room in my daily calorie limit for alcohol. Hangovers result in throwing up. It's definitely not enjoyable but it negates at least some of whatever I ate for dinner. They get along. And they work together to destroy my body and drive me insane. And to be perfectly honest I don't want treatment for either of them.

Yep, I'm 100% okay. Really.

[chaoticheadcase1994]

I told my therapist when I saw her 3 days ago that I've gained weight, I hate my body and I want to lose 10 lbs (I really meant 20 but that's not important). She said "I think that's fine, that's still a healthy weight for you so go for it, just make sure you do it safely."

All I heard was "Yep, you've gotten fat since I started seeing you. Stop eating."

[chaoticheadcase1994]

If anyone at all in the thinspo community sees this, please give me a follow. My 6k blog xxperfectlyinsanexx was deactivated and I'm currently at 7 followers (who I very much appreciate) but I really miss my friends. I'll follow back and give anyone else whose old blog was deactivated a promo. Thank you lovelies ❤️